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2007-03-24T02:46:00.000-07:00

Hello!
Temporarily moving back to avrilworshipper.blogspot. Because of blogger's weird tantrums. Okay FOCUS kyna, focus!

2007-03-20T03:40:00.000-07:00

You Are Avril Lavigne!

A bit hardcore on the outside...
But sweet and sensitive on the inside.
"It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life"

Who's Your Inner Rock Chick?

OMGZZZZ YAYNESS!

YAY! Yu Kewei has come back!!! My dear friend :D Fine, maybe I missed her a teensyweensy bittie. I'm surviving Term 2. The progress report was okay. Except that the teachers probably wrote the same thing for a whole lot of people. Why am i blogging everyday? 0.0 Because I am bored. Yeshh I actually have a few things to do like figure out the bloody notes for guitar, majorly edit the english essay, tidy up chem research, READ JULIUS CAESAR, get an enemy of the people, Chi tuition homework, figure out how to NOT continue getting 30somethings for chinese compos (yes it is that bad), get birthday presents for zona, beni, shaoweeeena.

Anyway, blogthings really does have the most amusing quizzes. I was asking cloudie and rachie to try out some of the quizzes, but their results disappointed. There were several interesting ones like Do you have a dirty mind, What type of writer are you, how girlish and boyish are you (50% each which was very surprising), but I doubt that they are accurate.

I'm kind of disappointed in you. You are hot, then cold, then lukewarm, then blank. This is what you used to call being a friend. But, what can I say?

2007-03-18T23:43:00.000-07:00

It was a typo!Wiki seems to have changed it, okay good. Haha anyway it's only a show, so sorry for overreacting :] Lent my set of PB to Lisyn, she better take good care of it. This'll be a quick one, cos i'm just waiting for my mum. Bleah guitar class later and I haven't figured out the notes yet.

So school was off to quite a rough start. We were told that we have a whole essay due this week - the draft, but still =/ & it's expository! =( The sad part is that I was working on an expository essay about Prison Break to do with what we've been studying in LA. Looks like it'll not be of much use.

Anyone has a copy of An Enemy of the People/Pygmalion?! Yeah so dead, I actually knew that we had to go back and read these books for Lit but I was too absorbed in the show. School doesn't feel the same without Kewei. Evil little thing is off canoodling around in Bali. Come back quick!

~~OngMingyi has the honour of being in this post for buying the most disgusting hotpink bra for Valerie. Free size some more! -.- At least I got her a nice little harmless present.~~

2007-03-18T05:54:00.000-07:00

From Wikipedia: "Fin Del Camino"- Final episode of PrisonBreak 2

Michael Dies, Bellick and Sucre, each with different motives team up in an attempt to catch T-Bag as Lincoln and Mahone square off. In Chicago, Sara goes on trial while Kellerman decides his fate.

OMG I scream. That must be a typo! But i realise there are not many words sounding like dies, maybe dines? But but but it cannot be! How can they kill off the protagonist with poor Sara being his sort of girlfriend and everything basically revolving around Michael Scofield?! It is kind of possible because Lincoln would still be alive, but .. PrisonBreak is not PrisonBreak without Michael! He is the brains of the show. It better be a mistake. Anyone who has news tell me immediately. Okay I know this is just a show, but shows should not do evil things like these to fans.

2007-03-17T05:19:00.000-07:00

Even my maid is hooked onto Prison Break! Waiting for my parents to go for their walk. And yes, if you ask nicely, I will consider lending you PB :) Never been so obsessed with Tv shows before, just hope it does not affect my schoolwork.
Baihui wants to learn guitar! yay. Haha I shall bombard her with the hard tango song and make her suffer X) (she lacks coordination, you see)

Tag replies:
huijun- evil junior =P How did u find this anyway? It's all your fault for distracting me at the time :)
grace- It was RED. why are all of you colourblind?!I'm looking for Prison Break skin, help me find/make!
mingyi- Thanks? And yes, one day, I will break INTO prison and out of it for fun, haha.
Steffi- haha they are a perverted pair. Anyway, thanks for telling me about hw stuff. See you on Monday!!

2007-03-16T21:43:00.000-07:00

Oh No, School is starting just as I'm getting hooked onto Prison Break. Yay I got 3 discs of season 2. Thanks to my dear mum. I've been doing a lot of research on the show, and it loosk like kind of a dead-end because they may end up in prison in Panama again. And the female doctor, Sarah, may end up sacrificing herself for the sake of the other guys. A lot of other things are going on.
I've successfully managed to get a few wanting to watch the show. Yay! And unlike a lot of the other fangirls of Wentworth Miller ,my fave cast member is T-Bag! :D The evil murderer guy who gets his hand chopped off. He acts very well as a criminal, the most convincing in fact.

Here is the synopsis:
MICHAEL SCOFIELD (Wentworth Miller) is a desperate man in a desperate situation. His brother, LINCOLN BURROWS (Dominic Purcell), is on death row and scheduled to die in a few months for an assassination Michael is convinced Lincoln did not commit. With no other options and time winding down, Michael held up a bank to get himself incarcerated alongside his brother in Fox River State Penitentiary. Once he's inside, Michael - a structural engineer with the blueprints for the prison - begins to execute an elaborate plan to break out Lincoln and prove him innocent of this sensational murder.

With the help of his cellmate, SUCRE (Amaury Nolasco), Michael begins to align himself with a disparate group of prisoners, including former mob boss JOHN ABRUZZI (Peter Stormare) and CHARLES WESTMORELAND (Muse Watson), a man some believe to be the infamous skyjacker D.B. Cooper. On the outside Michael has only one ally, his defense attorney and longtime friend, VERONICA DONOVAN (Robin Tunney) - who also happens to be Lincoln's former girlfriend. Meanwhile, Lincoln's 15-year-old son, LJ (Marshall Allman), is now adrift without his uncle Michael's positive influence in his life.

Rounding out the cast are DR. SARA TANCREDI (Sarah Wayne Callies), whom Michael ends up visiting in the prison infirmary more than he should; senior correctional officer BELLICK (Wade Williams), who is determined to keep a close eye on his new prisoner, and the powerful WARDEN POPE (Stacy Keach), who forges a close, almost father-son relationship with the new convict.

PRISON BREAK combines the hope of "The Shawshank Redemption," the camaraderie of "The Longest Yard" and the tense procedure and spectacle of "The Great Escape." This intriguing new series will reveal additional pieces of the puzzle each week as Michael carries out his daring plan to mastermind the ultimate prison break - and solve the far-reaching national-scale conspiracy that landed his brother there in the first place.

Interesting bits are that the main character has low latent inhibiton, which is the ability/disorder to focus on details that the norma human chooses not to look into. It either results in mental retardation or creative genius. & of course, the pair everyoen is rooting for - MiSa!

Yeah so basically the hols were spent on PB! It's really the most addictive show because of the tension and plot. Highly recommend it.
Also, after CCA on wed, I had a great time with Mingyi, Cloudie, Chew and Shaowin! We head Girlfriend in HMV and Heeren!It's the popular song! & they all refused to step into HMV. I know they secretly love the song, but are just biased against their dear friend. Experienced a bit of childhood nostalgia because we spent a lot of time in the shop near Kino with cute trinkets. We found a gross piece of twine in Shaowin's pasta that she had already chewed on. It was gross! So, we got a refund from the Pastamania people. Haha we acted so pissed just for the sake of neoprints money. It was hilarious trying to get Shao to take them. We had to pull her head up and hold it in place. The crafty little girl managed to sneak out of all the photos.

Happy early birthday to CHEW!!!!

" The first thing they tell you when you work here is never to fall for any of the convicts." -- Prison Break

2007-03-13T02:10:00.000-07:00

Yay holidays rock! I got myself a whole new stash of DVDs . I got Prisonbreak Season 1 [6 discs!]0.0( i have to see what the hype about Wentworth Miller is all about!), Pan's Labyrinth, Happy Birthday(chinese show for homework), Dreamgirls, Paris Je T'aime, Perfume, Volver. Don't know how I'm going to be able to watch finish all. I just watched Dreamgirls today.. it's not too bad but not Oscar-worthy. And Happy Birthday.. which I found more enjoyable, maybe cos melikes tragic love stories. Anyway, chinese shows can really be touching.

There seems to be a lot of homework but the deadlines are too far away. In between watching movies, I'll suddenly wonder why and how I can be so free. Was supposed to watch Music and Lyrics with Kewei but I was supposed to have a music lesson. CCA Tomorrow, I'm sooo nervous! I think it's especially scary being the OIC during holiday sessions cos i'll be so blur and valerie's also quite blur sometimes, so we will be the sotong people. Rargh I shall just put on a stern face. After that, Cloudie, Valerie, Mingyi and maybe Shaowin and I'll be going out. Jolynn is antisocial! She doesn't want to go! And she still says there is not much homework=( I think she probably has a secret boyfriend or something that's more important than her friends.The only time I can go out this week. Yesh I must resolve to read finish Julius Caesar.

"Et tu, Brute?" I would live with a guilty conscience forever if someone said Et tu, Kyna? to me. Anyone has Julius Caesar? I wanna watch it! And The Hours too?! Only got to watch the front part of it. The book is really beautifully written. Sorry I seem to be hopping here and there.

Okay I'm gonna finish at least 3 Chinese activity stuffs so I can go watch first episode of prison break. How many are there anyway?!

YAY AVRIL ROCKS! ;D

2007-03-11T01:00:00.000-08:00

WE LOOK GROSS AND WE'RE PROUDA IT!

no comment!

haha that's about it. I think I'll keep the rest for myself. Maybe from time to time, I'll post some group photos up. Back to all the homework!

2007-03-10T01:08:00.000-08:00

Oops I just realised that I forgot to thank several people who really made the camp a memorable one! :D

Hanchih- Even though I think you could have let others speak for you (your poor poor voice) and take charge, you really did a great job at trying to control our class, which is really quite hard cos we tend to be uncooperative at times.

Huiqi- The nicest monitress!!!! :D Haha for now at least :) Yay i'm glad to be able to help you. haha i ust noticed that u always ask me questions and stuff and even though we're not in the same clique, you're a really good friend of mine! & I was really honoured that u stopped even for a second to take a photo with me, despite all the things that u have to get done.

Jiawen- The cutie!! Haha thanks for helping Huiqi out! You're a true leader!!! :D:D

ROOMIES XD: Jolynn, Kewei, Florence. Yay roomies! We had a scandalous time together right! Will post lotsa cool roomie pics real real soon X) Thanks for the makeup advice and for really just being yourselves. we complement one another perfectly! :D

All the people i grooved with during formal night!: Thanks!! It was cool meeting up with all the people I don't usually see around in school so much. Sometimes, I really suspect that we have forgotten one another, but I guess not.

Guides- Yay we took lots of batch photos!!! Even though we are cliqueish, thats what makes guides fun right? That we can mix around with one another and stay disciplined at the same time!

Shaowin!!- Thanks for being a sexy emcee!!!You guys totally cracked me up when you were parading around as guys-.- If you were a boy, I would totally date you!

& many others, not forgetting the teachers who slaved for the camp!!! :D
Okay major picture post coming up soon!

2007-03-09T02:00:00.000-08:00

I'm Back From Camp!!!! It was really short but fun XD Formal Night was a blast, man!!! Everyone was getting high and ... even though there were a few really irritating people. I managed to find lots of people! Classmates, batchmates, ex-classmates, tuition friends and eoy programme people! X) Shall post a few photos probably.

Everyone in our class looked gorgeous.. I was honestly surprised at how many dressed up so well. I think we're all makeup experts.

Anyway, I think the Class Dance went okay. Considering the mess that we were in. From the looks on the audience's faces, the tribal part where the dancers danced was the highlight of the performance. We messed up the Class parade too (a bit), but it was all very fun. Hoho I stepped on Poor Oli's toe and she was screaming her lungs out in agony. Sorry!!

The comtest during formal night was damn funny. The sexiest.. Hello! Eh actually, I can go quite low :) Haha understatement. I should record my Hello sometime. But Hanchih was really sexy haha as she always is.

OOh And I have LOTSA scandalous photos!! :D Needless to say, they are of sexy Kewei and Florence. I swear, Jolynn is the only sane roomie i have.

Even though I was surrounded by all the sick people, I didn't fall sick 0.0 Hope they recover after camp. Must eat more vitamins!

Another thing. Shaowin was HILARIOUSSSSS! She acted like a boy the whole of the camp. Even though my maid says her boobs are too big for her to pass off as a boy. Haha she and the other 3 girls were so cool. Shaowin is the cute! Sorry Rachie Dahling... you're not the cutest in my list anymore. Sayonara baby.

2007-03-06T01:51:00.000-08:00

Mood: Excited
Music: the sound of Kewei & me singing Girlfriend by Avril :)

Camp tomorrow!!! WHOOPEEE, this is gonna be my last class camp in secondary school and fortunately, we will be living in comfort =] yay very glad that we got to choose our roomies :) Even though it would be more meaningful to room with a bunch of classmates that I don't really know that well. Anyway, it will be FUN , I can tell! Bringing along a camera to capture all the fun times.

Sec 1s/2s are playing weird babyish games with alphabet figures for babies, really pity them. Oh Career Conference today was scary because we had a talk by HCI guy and there are so many exciting programmes to choose from. But because I have nothing which I am particularly talented in, and my standard is around the same for Humans and Sciences, (judging from personal perspective) I don't know whether to try out for Humans prog or all those Talent Science programmes.

My bags are packed, I'm ready to go. No work for 3 days!

2007-03-05T02:30:00.000-08:00

Not ready to make nice - Dixie Chicks!

Lala had career conference today. It was really really really boring.. I'd almost rather have non-stop lessons of Chinese for the whole day than that. The Finance Talk was OKAY, but unrealistic..? I think there's a catch. Oh and I was sitting next to Guides for most of the day. Felt so squirmish sitting with 405 even though they're all really nice. Stupid Valerie Chew!=( And Cloudie plopped next to me and I used her scissors to shave off my finger hair! =) It was really gross and sadistically blissful watching the look of disgust on Cloudie's face. I am still as confused as ever about what to choose when I grow up. I am interested in certain fields, but the pay is either low OR I do not seem to be making any headway in those particular subjects academically.Which, as I gather from today's talks, is the main criterion of everything. Whatever, at most I end up as Avril's manager or backup singer!!

Phwoarrrr I suck at Lit. Or at least Lit in school. WTF, I have never gotten such lousy grades! For my test and assignment!!! I will be grateful to scrape through with a low B at this point-.- I almost wish JT taught us, I think he is more lenient. I think they are expecting a lot. But yeah I guess I went quite out of point on this one, so can't really blame the teacher. I'm gonne have to slave for Term Paper so I can hope to FINALLY achieve an A.

Ahhhhh saw the sec3s setting off for OBS and I felt this evil pleasure XD It was horribly physically straining and we get rewarded this year with nice rooms and food, hopefully.

I am gonna tie my hair from tomorrow onwards! It's a bit short but if not, it will be a huge mess.

2007-03-02T19:47:00.000-08:00

Yozza!
Okay that is sort of becoming my trademark greeting-.- Anyway I feel much happier today than I have been for a while! I am going for the Career Conference thingo at Suntec today, with my dear friends Rachel the dao, Rachel the .. sexy, Kewei the baka, Baihui the Asexual Stripper (who shall teach me about asexual reproduction in plants) and Jolynn the Intellectual desk partner. Actually I think it'll be pretty boring, which is why i will drag them along to do some shopping. I owe Steffi and banana birthday presents and .. maybe I need to get stupid heels for the formal night. Not that I want to, but if Mycelia is wearing Heels, then I dont have a choice right? If not i end up being as short as Baka. Shit.. why does everyone have to wear heels!!!??? Some are even wearing 3-inch hells, like stiletto-like?! I found this nice pair of gold flats in my mum's shoerack which is the only thing that remotely matches with the rest of my outfit, but they're 1cm tall, which means I'll look like a dwarf with my classmates.

Tomorrow I'm gonna meet up with Jolynn again for the Essay Prize Presentation Thing. And Jamie Sim too!Still can't believe I am gonna shake hands with the PM.. i shall slather on some disgusting fluid and watch his reaction=P Thankfully, so far no one is coming and if anyone wants to, I shall disssuade them from attending.

Glee is me. I was scaring my poor junior yesterday about OBS, telling her about the time when some of the kurt watch lined up in a row and peed and not being able to change undergarments and wiping our asses with leaves when we had no choice :) Really glad that that experience was over. At that time, I still didnt know my classmates well, but still it was a fun time with them.

2007-02-28T03:25:00.000-08:00

I FEEL THE PRESSURE.... of keeping so many secrets. Wah in one day alone, two friends have entrusted me to shutup and keep their secrets. I feel honoured but stressed. Better shut my big mouth up.

My throat has gone all wonky on me. It gives me such searing pain in one moment, and pretends to be normal in the next. Well, Life is Life. At least I got to talk to someone today and made me realise that I was not the only one feeling that way. It was actually amusing to see how someone else has such similar views towards her. And that that someone felt that way all along, when I just began to realise it. Finally, someone to identify with :) To hell with pretensive people ; I still marvel at the group of friends that bear with her daily tormenting.

We're all growing up much too fast, why doesn't anyone seem to notice?

Youknowwhat I'm not going to bring down my roommates with my moaning and groaning. If not they will be living in agony for 3 whole days. I'll just take Lifeskills with a pinch of salt. I'm looking forward to it now, just not formal night. I bet the rest will be really really fun =] Especially with my roomies- Kewei, Jolynn and LauLau. We shall join our beds and have pillow fights and midnight feasts and hopefully I can get a pic of them sucking their thumbs or something as blackmail.

It's official, im not going to Uk anymore. Oh well, still have the Hokkaido Trip to look forward to =] Jpop cds galore!

2007-02-27T04:24:00.000-08:00

Warning: Teen angsting ahead. Don't read if you dislike displays of immature behaviour.

ROAR.Really vexed right now. I really really really want to go for the UK Trip. I know it's certainly costly, but it's the same as if I were going on a family vacation. Plus it's educational and will help greatly in literature, maybe even give me the inspiration that has abandoned me to write more stuff! What more could parents want on a trip?! I even offered to subsidise 1000 and NOT go on the Hokkaido Trip (though we will be transitting In Tokyo!) I didn't get the chance to go overseas last year. I stayed here! And this UK trip costs slightly less than some of those trips. I was actually considering the US Silicon Valley Trip, but my parents would have epilepsies at the price. Anyway, I shall be an evil little spoilt brat, because I really do not think it unreasonable, seeing as I am funding and all and did not get the chance to go on overseas trips before.

School really really sucks. There are many things due/events- Chi SIA Report, Bio SIA, Bio Talk tomorrow. I hate the way they crash our minds in this week and let us "enjoy" ourselves by forcing us to make up and fit THEIR expectations of perfect little girls.

But I don't really feel that bad. I guess we obtain a sense of apathy after being so accustomed to the velocity we are travelling at.

PLC was fun and lighthearted. Thanks to my dear patrol leader, Valerie and I who were so eagerly awaiting the AIC position, got the OIC one. Holy shit.. I know someone will criticise my incapability of PROJECTING MY VOICE. Hmph whatever I can be really loud if I want to, but not when you force me to.

Excuse me for being a moody little piece of shit.

2007-02-25T20:27:00.000-08:00

Ergh Totally not looking forward to the formal night during Lifeskills Night. Many people were surprised that I would even be turning up in a dress.Honestly,I'm surprised too. But I think that dresses are better than blouses+skirts. Anyway, mine is the least revealing out of my friends, from what I have heard and seen:) I don't see the point actually, it's just an event for show. Even if there were other people there. so what? What's the point of dressing yourself up and believing that u have given others a "good impression" of yourself? What does having social etiquette have to do with makeup and dreses? If you're not feminine, does it mean that you do not possess social etiquette. I hope not and if people continue expecting such things of me, I'd rather not be a part of this society.

Youtube is slow!!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-02-24T02:17:00.000-08:00

Just came back from Guides Thinking Day Rally and i had THE MOST FUN in ages! Sat with my funny batchmates (well I am one of the funniest.. but ah well, shall deflate my ego for once) - Vic, Val and Mingpok and Jolynn.. the rest were far away but we stilllaughed and laughed nonstop. Why? Because there was this most amazingly amusing brownie in front of us (10 yrs old)called audris and she is damn perverted. She must have had a traumatised childhood because she spouted really sick stuff the whole time and she even poked a part of my anatomy that is too gross to name=/ Ew. but she was really funny when she kept complaining about our smelly bags. Took a pic of her and got her handphone number.. wahh kids these days get hp so early!

So it wasn't as boring as i expected. Except that I missed Rachie and Shaowin!!! They sat so far away.They are both so adorable!=D Rachel and rachwin, Shaowin and Edwin!

Okay back to studying for quizzes, sia rushing and ... working my ass off.

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Rargh. no matter what you say, i know that trust is gone. And without that, there is no basis for a genuine friendship. And i can't put the blame on anyone which is what I've become fond of. So with that, I say goodbye to what was a fun, true friendship.

2007-02-15T05:23:00.000-08:00

I'm Back, and YOU thought this was dead =] I felt much happier today than I have for quite a while. Anyway, i strongly believe that the only reason i did freakily well for Math was because my bio was not good and my LA srq practice sucked majorly. So it all evens out and i shall not gloat anymore.

Okay so tomorrow's CNY celebsrations. I remember when I painted the chinese banner ai wei er shi tou (Avril rocks in chinese) last year =] Maybe i shall do a YUI rocks one. In case you don't know who yui is, go find out! :D She's almost as good as Avril, but they're different, so i shan't compare. Speaking of which, Avril's album is coming out on April 17! THE BEST DAMN THING is the name and it will definitely be the best damn thing of '07 and all time! I'm setting a hongbao aim.. so i will be able to get my essentials.

I want to watch Letters from Iwo Jima! But like most nice movies, it is rated NC16. Anyway, i'm going to watch Ghost Rider with Rachel L and maybe the rest tomorrow. It's been ages since I went to watch a movie.

And I thought tests were the end of our doom. SIAS SIAS SIAS.

Thanks to Melissag for the tag! even though we're not close, i think you can understand where i'm coming from. Valerie you suck! =P avril is not a barbie doll, she's much smarter and she is not plastic! Nila, yep, girlfriend rocks :) Yanne you're welcome! Thanks for the lollipop! Glad you know your decimal points.

2007-02-06T20:27:00.000-08:00

The school computer lab is such a wondeful place :D Tidied up the poem already.

In the library now. I am trying to work on the Kranji thing, but my poem is still in pieces. I was thinking of writing a letter, but I realise I don't know what to say. The poem is coming along rather weirdly. It's difficult to sit down and force myself to come up with a poem=/

School is sad=( My schoolwork sucks. I went completely out of point and failed my Chinese compo. I suspect that a lot of marks have been deducted from Chinese Test. And... we have Bio Test tomorrow. But it's not the quantity... more of the quality they expect from us. Or at least I feel so. Even if I push myself to the limit, I doubt I will be able to achieve what they expect. I'll be looking forward to the meeting with Jiaqi and Valerieeee on Thu.

I would say try not to let your academic life ruin your personal life. But I'm finding it very hard to do that.

2007-01-31T01:40:00.000-08:00

First Test is Overrrrr!!!It was pretty easy, thankfully.

School is fun, hanging out with friends=] Went rollerblading with Kewei that day at the hostel, she fell down numerous times. In comparison with her, I rock at keeping balance. Which kind of contradicts the whole shorter people have lower centre of gravity argument. Bleah can you imagine.. tests every single day!

Jiaqi is coming back from China. Our old Sec 1/2 classmate. The Spine is going to bring her out! Even if next week = Hell, it's not everyday when your friend comes back all the way from China.

During IH today, I was jolted out of my beautiful reverie when Mr Khong said "Advanced Lit". I still don't know why on earth he was talking about it. I woke to a few people staring at me and I raised my hand instinctively. I totally disagree that we are trained to understand parts of stories (something like that).. taking Lit just trains you to be more sensitive and open-minded. We are not better than other people.. in fact, my English is going to the dogs. I am reading an English translation of Jap book. Train Man! A lot of short forms and stuff.

Desk partner and I are gonna encourage each other to speak up more in class! Perhaps only for LA. Cos i get really shy during Ih. It's hard not to feel quiet when a lot of people in your class are outspoken. You just can't help but to fade into the backgrounf. Anyway, listening to ideas is good too. We have been discussing Moral Philosophy in Class which actually kind of makes sense in a way. Except that my head was pounding like crazy right before Chem Test. I hope our class gets elected for the Moral Philo course, I definitely would love to join it. Unless there are more interesting options.

Okay will probably stop by here only occasionally.. blogging seems more and more unappealing. Keep Holding On!!

2007-01-24T20:42:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow's way (Acoustic Version)- Yui

Love acoustic versions to death :D Just one raw voice and 6 strings. I've not been too busy not too blog, but just have not felt up to it. In the computer lab with Kewei now. We're going for the Jurong Island Trip later (we get to miss half a period of Math. Nothing against Mrs Ho - in fact she's the best teacher we have- but I'm glad to escape from Math!)

Am rather looking forward to Kranji Memorial Trip. The last time I went there, I was shivering with fright. I don't expect to this time, unless my body temperature suddenly drops and I lapse into a bout of hypothermia. (Bio rocks!) Anyway, we're supposed to find someone who we can identify with there, so maybe someone will have the same name as me.

We finished term paper presentation! Yay! Celebrated with Kinder Bueno and shouts of joy. I didn't stutter! =D Not that i do usually, but i was really nervous seeing as I didnt even read finish a book by Jane Austen. We have lots to improve on for the report.

During Bio Lesson, I got the inspiration for a short song.
Jolynn Jolynn
She is a girl who sighed
Jolynn Jolynn
She is a girl who cried

She died with a dent on her shoulder
Punctured by her friend
Her friend's name was Kyna
Who sang to the very end

This resulted in a lot of sighs and protests to shut up. I bet other people would be appreciative of my efforts in "songwriting". Which reminds me, my teacher wants me to try out guitar theory so that I may be able to write songs! Then I can turn those dusty poems into songs:) But I'm still very unfamiliar with most chords and notes. I don't have the gift of being able to tune my guitar by ear.

I shall go pretend to be interested in world news and politics and go read up on them=/

Sometimes, I just don't feel like talking. Sometimes, I turn crazy. Sometimes, I want to forget that there's such a thing as school.

2007-01-21T01:23:00.000-08:00

You Are 50% Left Brained, 50% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

Interesting..

An early happy birthday to Keweiii!! Thanks for being a funky, funny and baka friend. Especially for being... deprived in the physical department so we can tease you! Kidding.. Anyway, thanks for being one of my close friends in class ! XD For fangirling with me over Deathnote, American Idol, Yui, etc. Most importantly, for accepting me, esp. when I was alone and stranded with none of my sec2 classmates in this new class. Unfortunately, I can't fulfill your wish of getting a boyfriend, but I can help you with it. -hint!-

2007-01-19T19:56:00.000-08:00

Really pissed off at people. In general. I could go on for ages about all the people who've made me angry by their behaviour or just their personality. Maybe I'm on a short fuse, but I seem to see red everywhere I go. Am bothered by how people can gossip and tear people to bits behind people's back. Yes I was unfortunate enough to witness it. At least have the couage to express how you feel about her in front of her. & you... you pretend to be this intellectual person, when you're nothing more than someone who craves popularity and fame so much that you don't even remember those you made you who you are today. Nothing more than a superficial celebrity. It surprised me a lot.. cause I've had a mostly good impression of you, until now.

Thankfully, my friends don't do that so I don't have to stand away from them.

2007-01-18T01:54:00.000-08:00

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

2007-01-14T05:34:00.000-08:00

Whew! What a start to the school term. A jolt back to reality. Fine, I am not exactly busy (if not, why would I be resorting to blogging?) Anyhow, Life has been great so far.Semi- Business takes your mind off things.

Glad to be back at chen's. It's been ages since I got to catch up with old pals. Joanne the pervert and Terri the .. bikini are in my class. & I got to see Jiajun at the tuesday class. Cool! It's sad that usually (before this year) when I saw 201 people, I'd just wave casually at most of them. There are those that I keep in contact with, but not many. If we were feeling happy, a flicker of a smile might appear, but really, there'd be no connection, no remembrance of the friendship. Which is why I'd rather not walk down crowded corridors.. it reminds me of how so much stuff can be changed permanently with time. Old pals rock!

2007-01-09T20:33:00.000-08:00

I am determined not to let this thing shrivel up and die. Kind of
ironic when everyone else wants to stop blogging and devote their time
to studies. But when I'm old and wrinkled, I need to remember what
happened in the past :) This isn't much of a account. I should learn
from Rach C who writes in her cute little journal, but it's much more
tedious. Feel quite flattered that celia says my handwriting is nice!
She is not the first person. Yeah allow some space for inflation of
ego.

Anyway, school's been tiring. First week only and I'm zonked. Everyone
else around me seems to be busy and tired and distressed. To be
honest, I can't say I'm VERY busy. There are so many other people who
are way busier. Which is why I better do well this year. I think I
said before that I wont focus so much on studies, but after hearing so
many people say they are gonna aid oil this year, I think I better
buck up too. To make up for last year. Especially since my worst
subject is gonna be tested in the Os this year. And to focus a lot on
LA. Shit we're gonna do current affairs which is not my thing. But
I've got start sometime if I want to attain my future career goals. So
if i do as badly as last year, please slap me.

We watched Team America in the LT. HILARIOUS! XD So gonna rent that
movie. Political madness! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! NO MORE UNSEEN
POETRY/PROSE!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe they're doing this. They have
turned LA into a weird subject which doesn't have much to do with
either English OR lit. It's all about current affairs and knowing how
to debate and argue back. I Miss english. If i knew this were going to
happen, I would take Os so I could learn english. Lit separately cos
thats how it was supposed to be in the first place. Pardon my anger.
Not interested in arguing or SRQs. That bloody part was the worst part
last year. I thought i was ok at it but I ended up FAILING it for
exams. Yeah not even a lousy pass. I don't make any sense, which is
why I should be allowed to take unseen. Now i don't even have an
advantage (alit= millions of unseen poetry) which isn't so bad but I
was actually okay at unseen. The teacher swallowed what I was trying
to say, anyway.

Rach L+ Baihwee wanted to come over. To do what, I have no idea. I was
caught off guard. My house is such a popular place. Probably next
week. My teacher is not a boring old fart. She's really amusing and
patient. I'm a really slow person (not as bad as desk partner) so it's
a wonder she doesn't scream at me. Learning flamenco! :D Some spanish
dance music. & raguardo (not so sure of the spelling) where u flick
your fingers one by one. & I learnt HAPPY BIRTHDAY! So, i may just
play it for you if you come over. Wahh so impressed shaowin is sitting
for grade 2 already XD That sadist actually excels at unsadistic
stuff.

Teehee really happy about something. Whee no more getting picked on.
Wow. Mrs Westvik has met a lot of famous people. Since the computer
stuff wasn't working, she went on and on about life stories (how she
met her husband) and which famous norwegian exlorers she met. At the
end, she went," So that's your advanced lit lesson!" Which obviously
resulted in uproarious laughter from the class. AHHHH i would really
like lit if we didnt have to present. stupid term paper. I don't mind
typing ten thousand words, but I loathe oral presentations. For
obvious reasons. Or you can go and think that i'm a shy little maiden
XD

Hrm anyway, so yeah how sad those are the only mildly "interesting"
bits of my life. I HAVE NO LIFE. but at least I'm not living in the
hostel like baka. They really have so much free time. My dear friend
was thinking about CHINESE SIA for 2 hours! That's horribly pathetic.
I don't even know the author guy we are working on though he is
allegedly one of the most famous taiwan writers.

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I am determined not to let this thing shrivel up and die. Kind of
ironic when everyone else wants to stop blogging and devote their time
to studies. But when I'm old and wrinkled, I need to remember what
happened in the past :) This isn't much of a account. I should learn
from Rach C who writes in her cute little journal, but it's much more
tedious. Feel quite flattered that celia says my handwriting is nice!
She is not the first person. Yeah allow some space for inflation of
ego.

Anyway, school's been tiring. First week only and I'm zonked. Everyone
else around me seems to be busy and tired and distressed. To be
honest, I can't say I'm VERY busy. There are so many other people who
are way busier. Which is why I better do well this year. I think I
said before that I wont focus so much on studies, but after hearing so
many people say they are gonna aid oil this year, I think I better
buck up too. To make up for last year. Especially since my worst
subject is gonna be tested in the Os this year. And to focus a lot on
LA. Shit we're gonna do current affairs which is not my thing. But
I've got start sometime if I want to attain my future career goals. So
if i do as badly as last year, please slap me.

We watched Team America in the LT. HILARIOUS! XD So gonna rent that
movie. Political madness! OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! NO MORE UNSEEN
POETRY/PROSE!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't believe they're doing this. They have
turned LA into a weird subject which doesn't have much to do with
either English OR lit. It's all about current affairs and knowing how
to debate and argue back. I Miss english. If i knew this were going to
happen, I would take Os so I could learn english. Lit separately cos
thats how it was supposed to be in the first place. Pardon my anger.
Not interested in arguing or SRQs. That bloody part was the worst part
last year. I thought i was ok at it but I ended up FAILING it for
exams. Yeah not even a lousy pass. I don't make any sense, which is
why I should be allowed to take unseen. Now i don't even have an
advantage (alit= millions of unseen poetry) which isn't so bad but I
was actually okay at unseen. The teacher swallowed what I was trying
to say, anyway.

Rach L+ Baihwee wanted to come over. To do what, I have no idea. I was
caught off guard. My house is such a popular place. Probably next
week. My teacher is not a boring old fart. She's really amusing and
patient. I'm a really slow person (not as bad as desk partner) so it's
a wonder she doesn't scream at me. Learning flamenco! :D Some spanish
dance music. & raguardo (not so sure of the spelling) where u flick
your fingers one by one. & I learnt HAPPY BIRTHDAY! So, i may just
play it for you if you come over. Wahh so impressed shaowin is sitting
for grade 2 already XD That sadist actually excels at unsadistic
stuff.

Teehee really happy about something. Whee no more getting picked on.
Wow. Mrs Westvik has met a lot of famous people. Since the computer
stuff wasn't working, she went on and on about life stories (how she
met her husband) and which famous norwegian exlorers she met. At the
end, she went," So that's your advanced lit lesson!" Which obviously
resulted in uproarious laughter from the class. AHHHH i would really
like lit if we didnt have to present. stupid term paper. I don't mind
typing ten thousand words, but I loathe oral presentations. For
obvious reasons. Or you can go and think that i'm a shy little maiden
XD

Hrm anyway, so yeah how sad those are the only mildly "interesting"
bits of my life. I HAVE NO LIFE. but at least I'm not living in the
hostel like baka. They really have so much free time. My dear friend
was thinking about CHINESE SIA for 2 hours! That's horribly pathetic.
I don't even know the author guy we are working on though he is
allegedly one of the most famous taiwan writers.

--
Chatted with Chia Jia Jun today during compo class. Yeah apparently my mum thinks that by joining this class, I can get better marks :/As good as it felt
to catch up with a 201 friend, we were shamelessly gossiping. Argh
thank god that I'm going for the sun class with beibei and joanne. If
not, I'm sure I would become corrupt pretty soon. Oh well at least I
didn't say mean things, that's really crossing the line.

2007-01-05T22:43:00.000-08:00

writer's block !=(

on a surprised note, I can't believe that 160 ppl (around there) signed their names for guides! They do not know what they are in for :D

2007-01-05T06:37:00.000-08:00

The last post was kind of uncalled for. No point moping around anyway.
It wasn't referring to academic stress, but more of people stress.
Nevermind, I'm just angry by how certain people behave. It doesn't
even concern me and I think that I'm being too emo. Shall go vent my
frustrations elsewhere instead of inflicting it on hapless readers.
Speaking of readers, I found out today that there are several silent
readers! Actually, it'd be quite cool to have an lj cos then i'd be
more erm connected with a lot more friends. Everyone's using Lj
nowadays and it feels so weird to comment on their ljs. Eh blogger
seems childish.. but i can't think of a suitable lj username-.-

Waha anyway i'm happy now 'cos i got reviews! Haha but i felt really
embarrassed when I saw them cos its humiliating when people with such
gd english comment on what i write. I linked it cos well i guess in a
weird way, i do want reviews . It's nice to have an interest
recognised instead of the label people give you in class. It's quite
pathetic how such tiny things can make me dizzy with joy. But I love
all you people who commented! :D

To take Goyla(how the heck do ya spell it!) or Loether? The peeps are
taking Goyla i think but that's cos they are smart/learnt the stuff at
stanford. If i take loether, I wont have anyone to discuss with. Oh
but there should be others taking it too right. Haha think i'll just
ask my dad which one he is better at so i can get help if the need
arises. Yeah I know someone's gonna preach about integrity but i
seriously need like full marks for SIA if I want to do well in
SOMETHING this year.

Chinese lessons are HORRIBLE! Besides not understanding a lot of
words, we have group work! Ok I usually like group work, but then if
it's in chinese then no way. I was sneakily speaking in chinese, then
baka told me to speak in chinese. Then after that, I was silent and
decided to be the writer. If there's one thing I can do, it's to write
simple chinese which I am grateful for. In terms of marks, I'm
slightly below average. But then my true ability is way below average.
Your marks don't show anything. Except if you're a dumb genius who
gets 100 for everything.

What else? Oh yeah I am totally indebted to Beni for doing so much!
Dunno why we chose Ms Austen to study cos she is a really long-winded
writer who talks in circles and has confusing sentence structure. But
she's certainly one smart woman to write satire. Really admire her.
Feel like writing about for the women empowering community essay but
she's not sporean and she's dead right? i think.

Felt lonely sitting at the back during guides today.. that's the
disadvantage of not being a pl. i know there are others but they are
all in the other company, how sad. Guess I shall be a nice senior and
ask the sec 3s about their classes and stuff. Thanks to my new desk
partner, guides passed really fast today. we spent the time talking
about nonsense. in the guides room, we had a laughing fit and shouted
loudly at a fellow classmate who shall not be named.

We're sitting in fours now. Quite happy with the arrangement cos I
have one more person to talk to and she's someone i can get along with
quite well. My old desk partner laughed evilly when i asked if she
missed me. So much for desk bonding.

LOTSA homework. I'm really going to cut down blogging even though it's
a real painkiller.

2007-01-04T02:49:00.000-08:00

Second day of school and I feel frantic already. Over a stupid reason, but still. This can't be a good sign.

It feels really sad and demmoralising when I look at people like you. I've never felt so strangled before. It's coming in all forms. There's so much time but the clock ticks too fast. Life as we know it is slipping away and being spent on such meaningless things. Really, life doesn't hold much joy. Apart from momentary bliss at seeing your friends, it fades away quickly.

2007-01-02T23:58:00.000-08:00

So... first day of school. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Haha my friends are still the same old same old. I ended up sitting next to Jolynn, because my bag was coincidentally placed next to hers. I miss my old desk partner! Still, Jolynn is an interesting specimen to chat with. I was completely lost when I got to school so I called ex-deskmate and found my way to the new place. Okay it's not too bad (Heck yes it's in the science block with creepy glowing foetuses and sooo far from the canteen)

Thanks for the letter, you know you are. It really made my day. Out of all the pretenders and sea of faces I will forget, I will always remember you, my friend. Yes, it's true, the power of a seemingly insignificant object can change your whole perspective.

Basically, the whole day was about PT telling us some funny and some not-so-funny stories and Class Elections. Quite sad that Rach L did not become Ass Mon, because it would be way cool and she suits the post. But then again, Jiawen rocks too! XD

Unfortunately, we had to go for guides during lunch. But it wasn't too bad. Mingyi, Cloudie, Jolynn and I worked on the shoerack gadget thing. It was the shakiest structure I have ever seen! Probably because I had a hand in it. Valerie and I discussed the demise of L while Shaowin screamed at us for being spoilers. haha, totally love making fun of shaowin since it's a rare opportunity.

The whole day didn't feel the same without Kewei. No horny jokes or fellow American Idol enthusiast.

The canteen stalls have changed! The food tastes much better now. I'd like the principal heaps more if she did not resort to using such cheesy cliches and metaphors that have been done millions of times already.

--
What I have written is both true and not. It's the other side, the light-hearted one pretending that everything is okay. I used to wonder how people could post such angsty/emotional/depressed entries when they look so happy on the outside, going around laughing with people.

2007-01-01T17:32:00.000-08:00

i'm back! & i don't have jet lag at all! Anyway, New Zealand is now my favourite country!!!!<333333 Besides Japan and America!The place is damn beautiful i will not even try to describe how amazing it is in my horrible english. it will totally ruin the niceness of it! I shall let several pictures of scenery do the talking. Maybe next time. Or maybe I will do a sort of travel journal like Jamie has done. I typed out 16 pages for the travelogue, but its really quite boring and didn't capture how i really felt.

Oh one unlucky thing happened. we got fined! for speeding (my dad) and cos i didn't put on my seatbelt! And then my parents were quite angry but they got over it soon enough. Felt really bad. Oh well. But luckily it didnt ruin our holiday. Omg NZ has everything! We visited factory outlets (but didnt do a lot of shopping) and it has INDESCRIBABLY AMAZING scenery!!!!!!!!Ahhhh. Berry farms, jetboating, it was a DREAM! didn't see many sheep though. and didnt meet terri. I saw a few places where LOTR was filmed.. now we know why NZ is Middle Earth.

Ok I'm going out soon. Heh yeah kind of weird because school starts tomorrow but i absolutely have to watch Death Note 2!!!! More later!

2006-12-24T04:10:00.005-08:00

Music- Tomorrow's way-- Yui!

Greetings!
At the airport now, the keyboard feels extremely weird compared to my nice apple book. So I'll be leaving in an hour. Waha can't wait for movies galore! & there will be free snacks (whatever we want to eat)! Haha i can see Valerie glaring and drooling simultaneously.

Won't be able to use the net overseas, cos my laptop is rigged up to my home. When we touch down, we're immediately gonna start touring. Argh jet lag!

Will have a major posting spree when i get back and try to take as many pictures of sheep!

If anyone's going to Japan, pls contact me. Very urgent!

Okay I guess this s it. I'm gonna miss blogging and people's tags. See ya guys! Spend your hols fruitfully! (Start on homework, you slackers XP)

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Bah, my flight is at 9. & it's freaking 11 hours! They better have all those nice recent movies. Speaking of which, I watched Borat! My 2nd R21 film. I don't think it should be given such a strict rating, more like M18 perhaps. It's very crude, but they aren't things teenagers don't know about already. Anyway, it was really really side-splittingly funny XD Especially the retired-retard part. It doesn't touch much on American politics so don't worry, it's not as boring as it seems. Borat is my new actor idol! That guy is so hilarious, even better than Mr Bean!

Anyway, I've been spending the day struggling at yoga class. This old lady managed to do the stretching thing while I couldn't. Ha but I beat her at the upside-down pose :D Don't know if I'm continuing.. I'm scared they will make us do splits.

Ooh I love J-pop/rock now! Not as crazy as Claire san though. I only like 2 jap singers, both female. Angela Aki and Yui (jap version of Avril?). Melodies in Jap songs are very nice and catchy :D But S'pore doesn't have a lot of j-pop cds as far as i know, mainly korean and ayumi hamasaki. ew.

Hope to meet Steffi at the airport! That girl's going to South Africa! So lucky. Hope she doesn't get eaten by a tiger. Touchwood! But she's leaving at 12, so I probably won't get to see her. Yay, party on the plane! But I'll spend my time watching movies, reading and podding.

Farewell all!

2006-12-22T21:47:00.000-08:00

Anyone interested in joining absoluteavril? preferably an html expert!

Anyway, I feel kind of unexcited now. No anticipation, no nervousness, not even a sense of dread (homework, duh). But I can't wait for horse riding & white water rafting! Okay, now I feel kind dumb for not going to class chalet. I said that I had to pack, which is true, but I could have packed later. I bet that if Jolynn was going, I'd immediately abandon my suitcases and go together with her. I'm such a coward. Nevermind, it's over and it seems like they had fun, from Baihui's lj. I promise to put aside all my classes and appointments to go for next year's.

The holidays this year have been rather .. lonely. I did get to go out with a lot of old pals which is fantastic cos I won't get to see much of them during the new school year. I think I've seen much too much of Valerie chewww already, we're both sick of each other. Also managed to see 3 classmates for 2 weeks, but it just wasn't the same. Who asked the nerds to go and pick Math? But I'm REALLY grateful to Jamie for persuading me to pick Expository! That woman rocks! & also, for making me quit Creative, so I was able to make a friend who I somehow feel will really keep in touch.

As for the homework department, well, we don't really need to go into that. But admittedly, I think I have accomplished a tiny bit more than my slacker friends.

Erm, this is going to sound stupid, but does songwriting involve knowing the notes/chords and stuff? Cos I think songwriting is really cool - just writing the words. If coming up with the melody is included, then I won't be able to pick up a new hobby. Heh.

Before I leave, I would like to go and urge you guys to read A home at the end of the world. by michael cunningham.Really really good book, but you will have to read between the lines a lot. I didn't understand a lot fo the symbolism, but it's very compelling with a fascinating concept, like Picoult's books but even better. Oh and check out Angela Aki, whose a Jap singer rasied in Hawaii, she has the most amazing voice!

Farewell! Shall eagerly await Death Note 2 when I come back :D

2006-12-21T19:24:00.000-08:00

Once in a while, a truly touching song comes along. Okay i know this
one is like very ancient but well... we were listening to it during
farewell prep. For once, everyone quieted down and really got into the
music. Which is a lot to say for us since everyone was laughing at
bernice and zhuoxuan's crazy chindian moves. Argh I wouldn't mind
dancing this deranged dance! Blame my parents again. But i heard there
will be a party on the plane! whoohoo maybe i'll get a taste of
champagne! :DD Yay can watch all the recent movies!Sadly, they weren't
really touched by keep holding on. I made them listen to it but they
were unaffected, heartless creatures! Cloudie wasn't here so I was
quite lonely.. I miss cloudie! Ha hope she
gets my card when she comes back from china.

I wasted my effort on (most) cards. Ha but at least I got a few in
return and thankyous. I was expecting a lot of people to be sending
cards this year, but the turnout has been quite disappointing. I even
took the effort to write some poems and draw some (ugly) stuff for
people. But, afterall, it's the festive season of giving and I am a
nice, benevolent person :DD

I will miss a few seniors and their craziness. Guides is an irony. You
can't really show your affection for others as it's mostly strict and
they reinforce discipline. But whenever farewell comes round, everyone
starts crying and hugging. At the same time, I'm a bit relieved not to
bear witness to my bawling friends. It'd be quite awkward, c'mon i so
won't cry even though I will be sad. There will be those who cry their
eyes out. Hur. But I really will always remember several wacky, funny
seniors.

2 MORE DAYS to NZ! :D Can't wait XD Okay back to the homework list that so joyfully awaits me.

2006-12-19T05:52:00.000-08:00

AHHHHHH!!!!
Avril's next album is gonna be called THE BEST DAMN THING! AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! -jumps around like a maniac-
At first, she spelt it the best dam thing haha clever Avril guess she was doing a pun on her album name :] Like the bonez (under my skin) concert tour!
Her first single is going to be called "Girlfriend"!
"I keep getting asked about my record and what it is called ... so I wanted to give u guys all the info directly ... I'm calling the record The Best Dam Thing, and the first single is called 'Girlfriend,' " Lavigne wrote. "The single comes out February and the record in April. I promise you guys will love this record, it is my favorite one!!! And I can't wait!!!!! It is really fast, fun, young, bratty, aggressive, confident, cocky in a playful way ... all the good stuff."-- AVRIL.

Ok so my official thoughts on this as a fan--
I have to admit that I'm a little less than thrilled. Why? Because the album name sounds a teeny weeny bit cheesy. Haha but it's definitely full of attitude like Avril! I just hope it doesn't end up being all fast-paced songs like he wasn't. Of course i love he wasn't , but i much prefer nobody's home and i'm with you. Avril shines the most when singing slower more sentimental songs.. like Keep Holding On ! Nevermind.. it must be fantastic since she says it won't disappoint. Sadly she only has 3 slow songs (from bandaids.com) but it will def. be fantasticismo! :D OMGosh can't wait! :)

'Nough fanatic stuff. Ah but can you believe it!

In the end, went with my mum to Malaysia. Asked Valerie along at first but her mother is skeptical of us. Haha don't blame her. So they're going for their own family trip there. Anyway, it's quite weird to go shopping with your mum and friend in another country. Or maybe I'm just strange.

Good and bad news. Bad news first. I look like a maid! No offence to them, really, they are the most hardworking, good-natured people. But my hair really looks like a lump of mud plastered on my head. It's neat, but ugh. Nevermind.. I shouldn't be worrying about my hair at a time when civil wars are occuring. Hm that sounded quite wrong. I guess we have to separate our insignificant little lives from the bigger things happening in the world. If not, all our posts would just be depressing and angsty.

My mother rocks XD Heh 'cos actually I was supposed to subsidise less than half the amount for the guitar, but now I don't :) And I got the flappy Converse shoes! I usually have to save up before buying these kind of things. I won't expect much spending money in NZ from my mum, but I shall pester my dad ;D FANGIRL ALERT! there's this corridor-side stall selling all types of fangirl stuff. Korean drama stuff, Korean/Jap/Chi actor stuff, even Avril stuff !! I was eyeing the KJH book thing, could buy it for kewei then beg her to lend me, but I'm not that crazy. My craziness will be reserved for Avril's next album!;) In fact, I plan on buying her album as gifts for people, even though chances are i'd go broke after a few cds. In the end, I got 2 laminated avril cards. One for myself and one for my avril-crazy senior. But now I feel like keeping both for myself-.-

Really must refrain from wasting time here. It has turned into a daily obligation. Next few days will be spent packing for my trip (byebye class chalet=(!)and on CCA.

I am so amused by my cousin! She dislikes reading my posts as she claims that they are "cheem". If I'm not wrong, cheem means kinda hard to understand and i take that as a compliment. I wish i could write more introspectively, but it doesn't seem good to air your views at a public place. Besides, it's better to express yourself through other outlets. Actually, I have a few posts hidden in my laptop, they're about more important things than my trivial life. Sadly, blogger didn't work when I wanted to publish them. A twist of fate, perhaps?

Bang, dead! My mind swerves away from work, like a nasty unavoidable reflex. Like all forms of homework is taboo. At least I TRIED, they can't blame me if I hand up poor-quality work . At least I'm handing up work at all. Well judging from the friends who I have talked with, seems like no one else has done much work. Can't make excuses even if I want. I have been decidedly free... up till now, that is. A vacation right at the end of the holiday is absolutely horrible. Still won't have recovered from the sight of frolicking sheep and .. (what else is NZ famous for anyway?) by the time school comes round. Haha maybe I'll even fall asleep counting sheep.

2006-12-18T04:24:00.000-08:00

How unlucky. My mum's car got hit by some woman driver. Now we can't go to Malaysia tomorrow! Argh. I really needed that haircut and shoes. My guitar lesson got cancelled today. I've only had 2 lessons! How am I supposed to be learning anything productive!? It wasn't the teacher's fault though.

My verdict on Eragon is that it deserves3 stars. 3 is considered good enough, thanks to the fabulous special effects. If it were not for Saphira the majestic dragon, it would get 2.5 stars. I'm a tough critic yeah. It was so Harry Potter meets LOTR. The most exciting scene was when eragon changed, you could see practically all the girls straining their necks forward. I'm not sure about the story, but with my limited fantasy knowledge, I could tell that it was very cliche. Melodramatic music, evil laughter, ugly monsters... But it was entertaining enough. Fine, it wasn't too bad... at least it had some sort of storyline and Sienna whatshername is very pretty. Avril's song was ONLY played during the rolling credits=( No one seemed to take notice! Even when i purposely said Avril very loudly.

That girl is evil. She made her brothers sit really far away from us. But that saved us some potential embarrassment too.Grace and i got each other wallets for X'mas. She got something from The wallet shop and I got an Emily one which I've been eyeing for ages. Handphones are the ultimate tool of destruction. Grace just got her handphone and she was messaging away. Ooh my dad just told me that it's not "to sms" since sms stands for short message system. so we can't use it as a verb. Hmm.. all along my English has been bad ;D Sometimes, technology seems to take over our lives. Pretty sad. I can't even remember the time when I was handphone-less and just being me.

I want one of those paperchase notebooks! Then I can doodle on the train when my iPod runs low on batt. During camp, I remember writing some random lines at PLC. Inspired by adorable rachel chng who actually keeps a journal.

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How is it that you can click so well with someone but spend so many years with someone else without knowing their true character?

2006-12-17T03:27:00.000-08:00

MERRY XMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR! (IN ADVANCE) i'm just being paranoid that i won't get to wish people that. Ha but if you're lucky, i may have sent you a card! :D

My aunt gave me a Kino voucher. I was browsing through the lit/bestseller section. I wanted to get perfume ( a supposedly erotic thriller about a murderer). Think I've been too influenced by My Psychosis. Anyway, what I really wanted was Lisey's story. Way above and beyond my budget for anything (except avril stuff). Got it in the end cos the paperback's not coming out anytime soon. A whooping $35! On a book=[ Which is obviously a very good one. & i'm not suddenly into horror/fantasy but it looks a bit jodi picoulty (deaths and stuff). I didn't feel the pinch much, but it's really one of the biggest purchases I've made in a long time. Well, we all deserve to treat ourselves once in a while.

I'm not the only person going to NZ at X'mas time. Terri is also going! Drats.. she's coming back one day before me and she's leaving 9 days earlier. If we are lucky, our paths will cross. We're both going to the southern island and the same places! How coincidental. Oh and the places Jamie went for her US trip were the same as mine. Either Singaporeans are an uncreative bunch or the world is just too tiny.

When have my parents started to nag me about homework? Oh, this week. This is quite weird as I usually finish most work in the first few weeks, but this holiday there's much too much. & I'm not gonna waste my hols on dorky work.

I've learnt my lesson not to read novels which have been made into movies before watching the movie (eg. Da vinci code) as it takes away all the fun. The movie really paled in comparison with the book. That's why Evelyn's Eragon is collecting dust. I can't wait to hear the theme song tomorrow, I shall clutch onto my cousin's arm and squeal with glee. I shall let the whole world know that it is the song by the great Avril. The best song in the world! No one to fangirl with me over Avril=[ Can you even fangirl over a girl? Anyway it's normal enough to fangirl over deathnote right..

2006-12-16T04:18:00.000-08:00

For once, I completely agree with Kewei. The more you listen to a song like Keep Holding On, the more it grows on you. No, I loved it the first time I heard it. Fine, I'm biased. & I'm definitely watching Eragon. It's one of the first songs that has a real tear-inducing ability. Sniff. even for someone like me :D

To go for class chalet or not? Honestly, I would be dying to go if I knew my class better. As in, we all know that it's gonna be that group sticking together and that group hanging out. Don't pretend you don't know what I mean. 307 rocks anyhow. By a pure stroke of coincidence, we have guides farewell preparation on that day. I am in a big dilemma. Still have a lot of homework to do, and the worst thing is that I'll be overseas after Xmas and have no time to do anything. When I reach back, i'll be jetlagging and the next day, watching Deathnote 2.Anyway, next year I'll definitely go for class chalet. Jolynn's right, it's more fun when you know your class better. If not we'll just be hanging out in the usual cliques which is kinda not the point.

I seem to be in a generous mood now. Christmas cards (ok that's quite normal), and I'm wondering whether to write testimonials for some seniors as I'm not going for farewell. Breaking my anti-friendster pact. It's not like I know them that well, but they are after all a cool bunch of people.

I have $50! What should I get? CSI:NY season 2 or converse shoes :O
Anyway, I know what you all can get me for Xmas.. which is totally free! Go to my ficpress site (linked down there) and read & review my poems and stuff! I'll be extremely happy! Say all types of bad things if you want, I just want reviews. Ok I know I'm pathetic but my ficpress acct is so dead now.

Tagboard replies:
Jolyn foo: Hello fellow gob! Yep, I know she knows you too. Heh.
valeriee: hey? reply to my text message!
kewei: Baka! can u say more interesting things? Aw but it's hard, seeing as you're baka and all :))
jamie: I removed it! WTH why do u always call me kyna ng. Do i have to remidn you that i don't really like being called by my surname? Yeah it's a bit girly, but it's nice! Anyway, i'm not girly!

2006-12-16T01:51:00.000-08:00

4 days of sleep deprivation, surviving on 2+ hours of sleep. Feeling like falling asleep at any second and having to work our asses off. But it wasn't all that bad. Even though everyone said that it would be better if we were campers, being the camp committee was still fun. It wasn't a fantastic experience, but it was worth remembering. Very glad that it's over! Sometimes I wonder why guides have to be so meticulous, haha but we'll probably be more prepared to take on administrative stuff. Everything has to be planned to be a T and if you get a single detail wrong, you may just get a scolding from the teacher. Very intimidating.

Smearing chilli sauce and throwing water bombs at people during Sabotage, cockroaches appearing in our rooms everyday, Shaowin the exterminator chopping off the cockroaches heads, Valerie's mumbling that was really hilarious, CAMPFIRE (the only event where we actually participated)- there's something about those flames that being out the nice side of people, mealtimes speaking Chinese with vic-ki, rachel, ant, huimin, jolynn etc [can u believe I actually spoke Chinese!!-yanne must be really proud], cleaning out the camp stall with shaowin and cloudie for over 2 hours slacking XD, when oli and I were in the toilet and the lights went off and we were in pitch darkness until cloudie rescued us, mingyi and I laughing over
valerie's leg sticking up at an acute angle to the ground and her mumbling, us screaming at mingyi's hair during night treasure hunt, slacking a lot cos I only have to do stuff after camp, jolynn and I looking for things to do and making random comments all the time, A
lot more. Mostly of exhaustion.

Anyway, living with people really makes you know them quite a bit better. Even for a short period of time. I'm just a bit disappointed in someone. I don't know how to explain it. It's not like she did anything wrong but the variations in her behaviour irk me. Sometimes, I feel that I don't stand up for myself enough. I just let things get to me too much. I'm not going to go into cliche shit about how I am hurting cos that's so overly emotional, but really, certain friends
are NOT worth having. Don't subject yourself to putting up with someone just because you're scared she'll be mean if you do sth against her wishes. I shouldnt even have the authority to say this, cos I am one of those people who will give in and give up.

Shaowin also surprised me, usually she's so sarcastic (especially to me), but she displayed her .. friendlier side. Got to know batch mates who I didn't know really well (blame it on the cliques again).

I am extremely ecstatic to be back in my lovely, comfy home. I love my maid! I think I lost a bit of weight cos my shorts were dropping off even more than usual. Yay! Ate vegetarian food mostly when the normal food didn't look nice. Precisely why I am called a SELECTIVE
vegetarian. The quality must be nice too!

I spent the whole of yesterday night writing personalised Xmas cards. It's more meaningful than emailing. How much does postage to China cost? I'm only doing this cos I didn't only sent a few cards last year. My hands ache=[ But it's worth it. Oh and i got a card from
Audrie! Flattered that she recalls me.

Plans for Next Week:
mon- eragon with grace and maybe her brother!
tue- Malaysia! with mum and maybe valerie.
wed- guides plc:( , ikea tampines with dora+jofoo
thu-guides preparation for farewell ( so sad that i wont be going, i am gonna miss certain seniors)
fri- asking audrie and maybe jofoo. Homework day!

I only have myself to blame for not setting aside time to do homework.
When school arrives, the shit will hit. & we'll be splattered to nothing but bits.

2006-12-15T22:33:00.000-08:00

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying right now. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

From Baihui.
In no particular order,
1. Keep Holding On By Avril Lavigne!!! (ERAGON OST)
2. The Piano Instrumental Song in Howl's Moving Castle!
3. At the Beginning, Anastasia OST (I loved this way before we sang it during campfire :D)
4. Lips of an Angel - Hinder (Probably listened to this 100+ times!)
5. How you remind me- Nickelback
6. Sirius by KJH/ the "we are stupid" song in princess hours!
7. Panic at the Disco songs (way catchy!)

5 people to do this:
1. Kewei
2. Yanne
3. Jamie
4. Valerie
5. Grace

* I realise that most of these songs don't contain very meaningful lyrics (except Avril's), and well, I like songs more for their catchy tunes. Hmm my song taste needs to mature a lot more.

2006-12-09T22:19:00.000-08:00

I'm reading A Home at the End of the World now, thanks to Baihui. I love this book, it's the type where you have to read between the lines to figure out the intricacies of the relationships. It was made into a movie too.

It's a melancholy Sunday. This is perfect weather for some angsty poetry. I was just browsing through Fictionpress, and there are some really affecting poems. Haunted and riveted by them. Somehow, it made me remember Stanford and that sadness I felt when we walked out of HCI. Like Baihui said, there seems to be a hole in our hearts. Memories of us walking into HCI and taking the stupid long way before realising the shortcut, Jessica and her witty offhand remarks, irritating Evelyn with Avrilist remarks, the 2 days when Jamie and I sat in for Creative Writing and were told to write a bad sentence and we had to rack our brains and Jamie came up with this sadistic scenario, sitting with Audrie during Expos lessons and laughing with her. Having both old and new friends in the same place as you is a comforting thought. I miss writing essays!

In case anyone like Yanne thought I was being too optimistic about camp, I'm actually ambivalent. I cannot imagine sleeping for only 6 hours and waking up freezing in the morning. I still remember the time when valerie shouted weird sentences in the middle of the night and Mingyi and I were so frightened that we turned away. & we still have bloody testwork! They are taunting me, I know. I bid you guys farewell, spend the rest of your holiday fruitfully and start on homework if you haven't.

2006-12-09T01:11:00.000-08:00

Siti, Audrie( the whiny bimbo) and me!

Group photo! the girl 4th from the right is in sec one! So cute right!

Merde, Baka and Stripper!

Us looking dumb again.

Ahh, sweet memories of Stanford! I'll miss the programme cos it really helped my writing. Except argumentative. & I shall start becoming an avid ficpress-er.

So I have guides camp on Monday, which means hardly any updating next week, unless we miraculously get to use a computer. it's gonna be fun! Mostly. Hopefully. I've brought some shocks and i hope to scare people at night:D First time I'm looking forward to camp, even though it'll be hectic. I've packed my luggage and decided to use a suitcase so i'll be rollin' into camp. I'm I/c for a lot of stations so i think i will just drop dead by the time camp is over. Bringing along a camera to capture funny memories and weird people.

So... this is it. My last post before Metamorphosis (the camp name)... it's also the name of Hilary's first album:( I will come back in one piece and not fall sick! Don't miss me, people!

2006-12-08T05:03:00.000-08:00

Lying there silently at the corner
Enveloped in a delicate plastic blanket.
Wind sweeps past suddenly
Ruffling its numerous folds

Like fields of golden wheat
Riding on the lilt of nature
It quivers then freezes,
Trembles then wheezes.

In that brief moment,
Creases and wrinkles line it.
Time is at a standstill
It has become the center of the universe.

Surreptitiously, its tail peeks out
Almost as if it were too shy
Playing childish peek-a-boo
Its heart not in the game.

Soft & strong,
It proclaims.
Taunting it mercilessly
Revealing the raw scars underneath.

2006-12-07T04:20:00.000-08:00

Before I start posting, I shall dedicated my eternal gratitude to my dear friend Jamie for having unbounded generousity. You see, she is posting this for me because my computer is screwed.

So that gives it away. Never mind, anyway Kyna's password is very very very gross. Before she starts having thoughts of executing a public massacre on me, let's get to the post proper.

Wednesday--
Stanford again. Basically, my whole life now revolves around Stanford.
I am really sad that this week is argumentative essay week as compared
to the personal essay week. I love personal essays – as we can
actually express ourselves. Of course, there are those weird people
who prefer argumentative. For people who cannot abide by a fixed
structure, I totally support creative writing.

Today is extremely blogworthy cos after Stanford I went off to Orchard
with (get this) Kewei, Baihui and Jamie. That's not surprising
considering they sort of know each other since we are all in Stanford.
But imagine a pair of 201 classmates with a pair of 307 classmates.
Maybe I'm just being weird, but it was really cool having 2 pairs of
your friends out together and trying to interact. Produces funny
results. I was originally supposed to meet Yanne with Jamie to DO
WORK, but our plans were foiled. Like, who wants to study after
Stanford?

First time going out with 2 groups of my friends who don't know each
other (except for the bit stated above). I think I did a pretty good
job making sure nobody felt left out :D Of course, everyone was
honoured to be in the presence of yours truly! It was an
accomplishment to make them erm interact because they are a totally
different group of people. Baihui and Kewei are the sarcastic, comic
crazy sort. Though it was a bit tiring skipping from pair to pair.
Everyone was pretty chummy and friendly, so it turned out to be a fun
outing. Deck the Halls was too late, so we boycotted the movie idea.

I am so proud of myself for coming up with the most ingenious idea –
forcing Yanne and Baihui to pierce their ears! For once, Kewei was all
we must let them make their own decision (so not her usual self),
while Jamie and I were trying to persuade them to pierce. It would be
much better and less scream-inducing than watching a sadistic horror
movie. They wouldn't budge. Then Jamie, Kewei and I tried to persuade
one another to get another pair of earholes. Obviously, it didn't
work.

Shopped around randomly. Since Kewei and Yanne are crazy over Korean
actors, we brought them to MISE. Baihui exhibited asexual behaviour,
much to my chagrin. Since her LJ display pic is that of a guy, I was
expected some major fangirling. We didn't find any pictures of
dachangjin's boyfriend, and the ones of KJH are ugly. Kewei is such a
copycat. Jamie had a vaguely amused expression on her face- coupled
with a tinge of disgust. She's the only person I know who doesn't know
any names of Korean guys. Pathetic!

Me and Baihui and now official CSI:NY fans! I like the sound of
fangirls but there isn't anyone to fangirl over in CSI:NY. Except for
Flack and Danny, Baihui says. I agree! CSI:NY is really a smart show
and what sets it apart is the character development. There's this
actress who looks like Angelina Jolie, but with brains. Brains and
beauty make a lethal combination.

I blew my money on Famous Amos cookies, lime juice and fries. Must
make up for the time lost when I had that horrible sore throat.

Goodness, Jamie says I like to gossip. I guess it's partly true, and
it's a very bad habit. But I think it's more of me liking to hear
about people's views on other people. But if I like to gossip, then
almost everyone else does as we discuss people we know and are curious
about in conversations with out friends.

Oh back to Expository. Yeah so I chatted with Audrie again. She keeps
saying that I'm lame-.- I feel like I'm interacting with a primary
schooler. Oh and she has a lot of fate with the person sitting in
front of her. They should just go and get married already. Too bad
that she did not accept my dare. It's really cool being able to talk
(naturally) with someone who I have no prior connections with. I'm
really shy, didn't you know? She shares my disdain for CCs too:) Hope
to meet up with her and Jofoo together, it'll be amusing seeing how
they interact with each other. I'm so weird.

I don't really think this course is helping me much. Perhaps it gives
me the chance to write, but my writing skills are still as bad as
ever. One of the remarks I got was that I make too many personal
attacks. I'm quite surprised.. I guess because I'm so UNaggressive in
real life, I express my anger on paper. My self-esteem would have been
ripped to shreds if not for the other essay which had pretty good
comments. Anyway, the main point is that I don't like organization and
structure ;D

--
Look at this! Got this from Jiamin.
http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/
(This is the result of my colour preference for black and red)
Jodi Picoult said in her book that red and black are SUICIDAL colours.
OMG! I guess I like them cos they are gothic-y and more
non-conformational colours. Of course, they are the colours on Avril's
2nd album which is the main reason. Really, I'm not suicidal.. I'm
mildly satisfied with my life as it is. Oh and artists who draw
tongues show signs of sexual abuse.

Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting
back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could
be left in peace.

You are a leader in every sense of the word. You know where you are
going and you know what you need to do in order to get there. You
exercise an inherent initiative in overcoming obstacles and
difficulties. You either hold, or wish to achieve, a position of
authority by means of which full control can be exerted over events.

You are prepared to establish a particular relationship that is being
made available to you at this time. It could be a satisfactory liaison
but there could be a certain amount of conflict involved -try to avoid
direct confrontation at all costs.

Recent disappointment has led you to become truly introverted. You are
becoming suspicious of everybody and consequently you now feel that
you are unable to trust anybody. Unfortunately it would appear that
you are curbing your natural enthusiasm and imaginative nature -
perhaps this is because you are fearful that you may become over
enthused and find that you could possibly be carried away by wishful
thinking. You are keeping your distance to see whether attitudes
towards you are sincere - but this watchfulness could easily develop
into suspicion and distrust.

Perhaps in the distant past your trust and belief in your fellow man
was misplaced and you can now no longer accept anything as it appears
to be. You are untrusting and you insist that before you commit
yourself to anything, you examine the pro's and con's with critical
discrimination. The situation has now progressed to one where you are
apt to disagree yet not make any form of constructive criticism to
every suggestion that may be put to you. As a result you are in limbo.
There is a saying that goes 'The past does not equal tomorrow'. Think
about it - and let go.

My goodness, this is slightly true but not really. Just cause I like
red and black doesn't make me a rebellious, freaky person.

Thursday--
Yay we are going to watch princess bride tomorrow. Last day, so we are
having ceremony. Aud and I are giving jessica a card and present.
Shall bring my cam to take pics. Blah okay lotsa lotsa things to go
and work on. Ouch, my braces hurt badly! New colours- red and green
for what else? X'mas! :D

2006-12-04T04:26:00.000-08:00

Apparently, I'm a crazy eccentric fun person who's totally obsessed with Avril. According to my past Friendster testimonials. I was just scrolling through them, in the first time I've been on Friendster all year. It really made me smile. In a good way.

Yay I've made a new friend who knows Jofoo well, she's got called Audrie. Weve got lots in common.. only childs, biochemlit subject combi, we hate bimbos (which is quite universal really). Looking forward to chatting more with her and spreading the love of Avril;D

I love Jessica! How can one not love a teacher when she bestows upon us such saccharine sweet comments? She actually liked my essay.. To give you an idea, I ended up in prison after suffering from domestic abuse and killing my husband impulsively? And i ended up in science as a profession. Because I wasn't good enough to be a writer and unadventurous to be a writer. I do hope my life does not end up like that.

Anyway, I'm gonna arrange more movie marathons with fake food people;D We need good intellectual TV like CSI:NY to get us in the mood for major brain work next year. Arghs, gonna do some homework before my favourite Amazing Race! I support the dumb blondes mwaha since everyone hates them, let 'em show them that not all blondes are dumb.

//
The blondes are out! They are not helping my blondes are not dumb theory. Blondes are airheaded, but they exploit this to their advantage- look how rich Paris Hilton is becoming. I am loathe to admit that I think Nothing in this World is quite a catchy song=( Ohno everyone will never want to read my blog ever again. Kewei said the guy in the vid is cute. She has a thing for younger guys. Maybe she will run away with that 9 year old genius in her stanford math class. Haha baihui likes Flack from CSI, and man, she's got good taste. He's of Italian-Irish (this is questionable) descent. Asexual people have great taste!

Someone teach me how to solve rubix cubes in one minute flat.
Yay looking forward to guitar festival with shaowin!:D

2006-12-02T20:42:00.000-08:00

I was surprised when I opened the window of my blog and discovered an outpouring of comfort. If you consider a few tags a lot of comfort. Anyway, I appreciate the concern. I am neither sad nor suicidal, thanks very much. It’s just good to vent your frustrations sometimes, cannot always be some happy weird freak. Really, I just felt quite strongly towards certain people’s behaviour and that’s all. A form of balance is needed after all, which is why I’m gonna start on some really angsty stories soon, thanks to my inspiration from Picoult novels.

Stanford is as dire as usual. But I admit that I like writing essays. There was one where we had to imagine ourselves at the age of 70+, and I said that I would be abused by my maniacal husband. & end up in prison after stabbing him in the stomach. HAHAHA. I have this premonition that I will end up leading a very weird life. Although I most probably won’t get married and I definitely won’t end up killing someone! It was more fun writing from the inside of a prison cell than from some retiring home.

Currently, I have a new obsession… CSI NY!!!! I don’t see how I could have wasted my time on Korean dramas which are oh so boring when CSI was there all along. Always been quite interested in CSI Miami, but the character development is weak and the blonde/redhead main lead is off-putting. Courtesy of Baihui, who brought it over on Saturday for us to watch. Now I understand why the girl is willing to spend $100+ of her Christmas fund on it. I will probably get it from Malaysia. The unpirated version.

Crime is so bloody cool! Not the results of it, but the process of how people trace the perpetrator and the DNA bits. There was an episode where they dissected a rat to find a bullet inside. The dead people are all fake – they are actually living, breathing people. In one episode, the stage make-up was very convincing.. the girl’s face was all mouldy and green and decomposing.

So we watched 7 episodes of CSI:NY the whole day. Rachel T, Kewei, Baihui and yours truly. There are even books on CSI, have to read.

2006-11-29T06:09:00.000-08:00

All of a sudden, this wave of emotions sweeps over me. I think i have been much too complacent with life. I have not exactly been pretending to be happy all this while, as how I appear here. I don't feel particularly unhappy nor do I genuinely feel the sort of happiness that seems to come out from what I write. Nothing has happened to change how I feel, I just feel very tiny. & insignificant. I don't know how to describe this. The saddest thing is that I have never been able to pinpoint my true emotions and put them into words. In this case, everything has been fake. Oh and to cheer me up, I feel really bad about how I butchered the English language in the exams. Yes it's coming back again. Not the academic part, but that I single-handedly destroyed and changed the whole meaning of a summary.

It's almost as scary as killing someone... changing the intentions of someone, blurring the clarity of what was trying to be communicated so that nothing appears as it was supposed to be. It's positively frightening to have the unnecessary power of ruining something so powerful. It does not make you feel powerless, it makes you all the more susceptible. To put it simply, you have ruined your very self.

hate the way I feel compelled to chronicle every eensy detail of my
life. Am i scared that I will forget what has happened? What's the
point of remembering the tiny details that pepper your life? Is that
enough to satisfy me?

I thank Avril once again. Her ballad "Keep Holding On" is totally
appropriate to how I'm feeling, not in the sense that it is
motivational. If i pretend hard enough that she really wrote the song
for her fans who need support, I can almost believe that she is
psychic. Fine, who am I kidding?

I really dislike IT. it's scary how I change my mind so fast. I was
just writing about how much I loved it- with the poetry we got to
write. What irks me is the stereotypes. Now i know I wouldn't be able
to stand it... stand studying in a classroon of people acting so fake.
All on a superficial level, so much that everyone appears to know
everyone else when they really just need some companions to kill their
time. If I ever got to the point of acting so unbelievably fake,
please hit me. I don't even want to make this feel less offensive. Go
ahead and think that's how I feel about everyone in my class. If EOY
programmes are supposed to feel like fun which everyone seems to be
having, then I have made the worst mistake possible. Not my choosing
Expository, but my subjecting myself to the torture unfolding before
my eyes day after day. It has the power to kill.

I would not be able to stand JC i think. Secondary school is bad
enough. I don't like pretending to go with the flow, to have to try
hard to fit in. I respect everyone, but if moulding myself into them
is what it costs, then I would rather not. The only thing I can hope
for is that my closest friends remain true to themselves and what
makes them uncharacteristic. If not, I would be sucked into a sea of
faceless people. Really, I am extremely scared, I have this urge not
to have to go through so much superficiality. I think I may even be
scaring myself too much. I am paranoid. After what I have seen and
realised that life is probably gonna turn out that way, I don't want
to go down that route. (Shit, I sound suicidal) I don't mean I want to
do silly things, all I mean is that I don't want to turn into someone
else. Cos that's what WILL happen.

I don't want to look at someone with a fake smile on my face and
pretend to like them genuinely as a friend.

It's not JC, it's people. The way society works is frightening. For a
prime example, look at Jane Austen's era. Her satires mirrored their
inadequacies, and I can see how unhappy she was about it. Society was
the factor (in my opinion) that turned those women into greedy,
scheming money-minded women who wanted marriage for precisely that
reason.

The thing is, I want to sound extreme and evil and speak my mind
exaggeratedly for a change. I don't want to play things safe by
containing myself in what is supposed to be my space.

I don't even know what I'm talking about already. To be as incoherent
as those abstract writers is sadly satisfying. I should post totally
incoherent rambles more. Or I should go into a sort of reclusive
hiding and write in a leatherbound diary. Nah, writing's too tiring.
Man, this makes me feel better. I don't know if what I have written is
completely true and the intensity may not be how I feel.

Now I shall submerge myself in Reality TV.
My brain must be a junkyard, stuffed to the brim with intense feelings
then filled with mindless unmentionables.

//
Edit:
I quit Creative Writing. Jamie's right- I am too scared to be in the class by myself. I follow people too much. But if you want to know the truth, I guess its becaue I can't stand the way some people act. More than that, I don't like being in isolation. Haha, at least for Expository, the people seem nicer and less irritating.

On a happier note, Mr Raphey solved my Rubik's cube - all it took was a trip to the bathroom. Genius math whiz! Hmm maybe I shld've taken Math, then I would know how to shock people with solving all these math things. Went to Borders cos i had 30percent off, in the end, Baihui and Kewei used up my vouchers. Which made me more than happy, cos they will lend me their books, haha. Jessica is the nicest teacher ever!She made some nice comments about my essay even though I use horrible imagery and extra commas (according to Jamie). Anyway, never call Evey cute. She will box your ears out.

In the school computer lab now. Kewei is trying to get her parents to let her sleepover ;D Rachel(s)+ Baihui are going to come and watch CSI tomorrow as Baihui persuaded her dad to get her CSI:NY. It cost 100+ bucks! Gawd, even I wouldnt pay so much to see blood splattered about. Guitar lesson was cancelled at the last minute, poor Lena's sick. Everyone seems to be getting the bug. I have quite a bad sore throat.& my cousin's feeling under the weather.

I almost had a heart attack just now. Trying to speak Chinese to Kewei's mum. I feel really bad cos my chinese sounded horrible! Oh & Kewei's fiance checked out her room, so they arr practically married. I really must improve on my Chinese!

2006-11-27T05:00:00.000-08:00

This seems like the right timing, what with so many rich people around.

My Xmas Wish List!
1. Avril’s ’07 Calendar- what other better way to usher in the new year?
2. Avril’s Budokan DVD (only available in Japan)
3. KJH 5 Stella Lights CD
4. Princess Hours VCD Set
5. Prince Hours VCD Set ( sponsored by my dearest cousin)
6. A Cool Gothic-Looking Wallet
7. People to write Fics for me and my long-anticipated ficart from Baihui
8. Kino Vouchers!!
9. BOOKS! Shakespeare plays, Jodi Picoult novels, Guitar Score books, Classics, Lisey’s Story by Stephen King(!)
10. Deathnote DVD
11. Extremely cool guitar shaped bag from Depression
12. More T-shirts!
13. More Hoodies

I shall stop before people start throwing eggs/random vegetables at me. But they are not really exorbitantly priced items right? Bah.. I’m not expecting much as I may not be giving much, thanks to blowing my money at Kino today. However, I do promise Fics in return :D Don’t expect a really good plot as my brain has recently shriveled up and lost all its creative juices. Hopefully expository will give me inspiration to write better.

Expository writing at Stanford today! Nerd camp was fun! Today got off to the wrong start with me directing my dad to the wrong bus stop. I huffed and panted all the way to the classroom blocks, man, HCI is massive. I sat next to Evey, and had fun teasing her about her very slow writing. Our teacher is called Jessica, she’s getting her phD in english. I sort of expected some experience professor to be teaching us, look at the amount our parents are paying.

Nonetheless, her English is really good and she is extremely eloquent. Except that we spent most of the time writing our essay. I must learn to write slowly, cos they give us a lot of time to write. I finished it up pretty early, so I browsed through Battle Royale, sponsored by Jamie. I can’t believe she is reading it.. she seems the sort who would be turned off by such sadistic .. things.

So basically the whole day was spent going through some writing techniques, which were helpful. I’m ecstatic that we are going to spend the first week on personal essays, then the 2nd on argumentative. Argumentative is the pits! Our essay was about the best/worst holiday we had.. and I am proud to say that I didn’t fabricate it. Only a bit.. cos I forgot some details. Jamie wouldn’t let me read her essay. “It’s bad.” Coming from a girl who does well at LA.

Then met up with Baihui and Kewei during lunch! In the end, I didn’t make any contact with them. Still anti-hugging:) Kewei’s hair looks like limp vegetables. Fine, it’s quite nice as it’s rebounded and she’s going to grow it out. Baihui is in need of clothes… she was wearing ny uni. Chatted, Kewei is disappointed that her teacher and the tiny boys in her class are not good-looking. This is the perfect example of superficiality.. Stanford is supposed to be a learning experience, not some dating opportunity. Stupid baka! Oh and the first time having boys in the same class as me for quite a long time. It was really nothing spectacular.. they’re just a bunch of guys who like to answer questions. Rather eagerly. & I answered questions without the teacher prompting. Jamie the loudmouth debater didn’t even say anything. Ha but that was probably cos she was sitting all the way at the back.

I loved the handouts. There was an intriguing piece from Stephen King, I guess appearances are deceiving. From his books, he seems like a scary guy, but he is actually a normal family man. Haven’t read his novels yet, anyone has any of them? We got this adorable book called the elements of style, by e.b. white and his professor. It’s really hilarious, sarcastic and all.

Trooped off to Kino on a mission with Baihui and Kewei. To get clothes for baihui. Apparently she’s deprived of clothes. In the end, we didn’t get any. Browsed HMV etc. We all got books at Kino. Thanks to me, they saved lots of money. Baihui bought this video game artsy thingy which was a whooping 50 bucks! Mad person, but she really loves art. Kewei bought some vampire comics and the time traveller’s wife which I’m going to borrow. I got 2 books- The Dante Club and A Midnight Summer’s Dream by Shakespeare. Actually I have no idea why I bought that as I totally don’t get the language he uses. But I’m a sucker for love entanglements, and Shakespeare does it best I guess. Doomed, haven’t even read finish Julius Caesar.

You can’t take the Science out of 301 people.
Jamie: Oh shit, why did I drop my cards all over the floor?
Mengyuan: It’s inertia you see…- launches into lengthy physics explanation-
Jamie: Oh I see…
With these people around, camp is going to be amusing, if not highly annoying. I guess that’s just the way academic smart people are.

Shall be Baihui’s fashion adviser on another day. Accompanying Baka to buy plane tickets tomorrow after expository. Yay before I forgot, a big THANKYOU to JAMIE for persuading me to take expository! Although I regret not taking creative writing as they get to take both expos and creative. Creative sounds so fun, they do story writing and stuff. Looks like I’m going to be surviving this camp after all.

2006-11-26T01:55:00.000-08:00

EVIDENCE THAT I AM NOT UNREASONABLY OBSESSED WITH AVRIL:
ARTIST: AVRIL LAVIGNE
SINGLE: KEEP HOLDING ON

NEW YORK (Billboard) - Amid so many posers in her wake, Avril Lavigne has taken her time, stepped back and maintained her integrity, waiting for the appropriate moment to return. Soundtrack song in between albums? (Next is due in April.) Ideal. "Keep Holding On," from fantasy flick "Eragon," due December 15, meshes her authentic lived-it (albeit still youthful) vocal signature with an uncharacteristic orchestral arrangement and anthemic pop chorus ("Keep holding on, cause you know I'll make it through/Just stay strong, cause you know I'm here for you"). The result sounds like cross-format sustenance. Industrywise, Lavigne is riding the delicate border between Top 40 babe and adult Top 40 mainstay ... Here, she commands both sides. Gorgeous song, probably requiring an edgy video, but in any case, it sounds like she is set to remain for the long term. —Chuck Taylor
thanks to avrilbandaids for being the best avril update site ever!

I think I've mastered the C-chord, yippee! Haha well I'm a complete amateur so it's a big accomplishment for me. Just went for Stanford Programme briefing, I'm taking expository. Evey also switched from creative writing to expository! Excellent, I need company since Baihui+Baka are taking Math. Haha saw Baihui in NY uni (deranged) walking there. So we gave her a lift inside. The talk lasted for a grand total of 10 mins, and it was about the HISTORY of stanford. Probably Yanne would start getting that mesmerised look on her face, but I doubt many others were interested. So it was about everything we already knew or could be found in the booklets they supplied us with. At least I had Baihui to chat with. Baka is only coming back tomorrow... so she'll be jet lagging and falling asleep during class!Heh no she's probably be too busy chatting up hot guys=)

More on nerdcamp tomorrow, pls don't let me morph into a geek!

2006-11-23T04:31:00.000-08:00

Exhausted doesn't do justice to the way i feel now. Aching arms and
legs and basically torso,
feeling as though i have been pulled about by people like a puppet on
strings. Anyway, today was the MOST
fun i have had in a long time. Laughing, that is. Laughter is the best
medicine! It came from laughing so hard at
the ideas our dear jiayun cloudie came up with! for heritage trail.
Can't reveal much here in case any juniors read this
secretly which i doubt. Anyway, our clues for the heritage trail are
SO COOL & CREATIVE! but they r very tricky! & its like AMAZING RACE
ASIA!!!we have detours and roadblocks and fast forwards. At first we
wanted to have BUNGEE JUMPING!(sorry for capitalising, its cos i was
kinda excited by it)but ms ong didnt allow cos it's "too dangerous".
ARGH i was looking forward to trying out the clarke quay bungee jump
with me batchmates=( & hearing Valerie and mingyi scream lol. Pre-camp
training was tiring, 830-330 of outdoor stuff-gadget thingums and
firelighting which makes u all sooty and smelly. Jiayunnie was a
genius to coem up with the idea for one place... man, people are gonna
think we r terrorists!! We shall be i/cs together and creatve havoc.
We ordered in Macs, and it took bloody long so we went off to esso to
load up on food supplies. jiayun and valerie were pigs and got instand
noodles when they ordered macs. We r going receeing, was supposed to
meet yanne, but dont have a choice. Sorry, Yanne!=( But anyway,
receeing will be fun too:) can imagine us asking the person at that
place whether they'll allow our terrorist bomb thingum idea. All the
brilliant ideas came from the mastermind, cloudie. But i must admit
that she is the most creative, if most ridiculous person everrrr!

Anyway, psle results ARE OUT! i am happy to say that i beat my
cousin:)) we got the same psle score but i got distinction in higher
chinese as compared to her merit (3 yrs ago) Can u believe i got
distinction!!?? Hmph well my chinese used to be quite good considering
i just started learning it in p1. Until sec school that is. Looking
forward to the recee trip with 8 sec3s, ongmingpok, cloudie, jolynnie,
bernice, rachel chng the retard, mai and huimin. It will be more
productive than our last one!

I hate to admit it but I miss my classmates. Haha. Cos i havent seen
any of them, except Jolynn. I shall envelope Baka & Baihui in a
suffocating embrace when i see them at standford. OHnoes i hope we
dont have to wear home clothes to stanf. cos my clothes all look the
same, all black:))

Okay i shall be good and tune my guitar and work on Lit sia stuff=)
Was talking to my juniors today.Can't believe only 4 people in the
whole sec2 cohort are taking history. In our year, it's very popular.
& now bio is so popular too!Yay, and there's one whole class of Lit
students. YAY! Finally, people are becoming more interested in humans
and cool stuff like Bio! My subj combi is considered very rare, i
guess, for the exclusive people=)
--

YIPPEE this will be a gloating post. So if you feel deprived of
anything right now, don't read on. I warned you.

Got my Guitar!:D It's a red classical guitar, cost around $200,
subsidised my mother. Mothers are the best! Unfortunately, I have to
pay her back, so i'll have to take up a job or pluck out the white
hairs off her head or something. Met my guitar teacjer and she helped
me decide. Chose that as I dunno if this interest is gonna last for a
very long time. Its good enough to take the grade 2 exam. Shaowin got
a bloody 300 bucks one while poor valerie got a 70 dollar one:)

Suddenly, i love all those disney songs, like from the movies
soundtracks. As a young girl, i used to be infatuated with all those
lovely songs... but i always felt a sense of melancholy that i never
seemed to be able to remmeber the lyrics. Now i can relive all that
disney glory.
Anastasia OST is worth a listen, i'd been trying to
search for the songs once upon a december & at the beginning for ages.
Mulan, The Little Mermaid, The Nightmare Before Christmas have
amazings songs too. I guess Disney does have its magic. Even though
studio animations like pixar/bluesky studios are making a lot of money
at the box office, Disney songs are the ones that stand the test of
time. This marks my foray into being a pop music addict again:( I am
even beginning to like Jesse Mccartney's/Vanessa Hudgen's songs=( Oh
no, I am turning 10. Promise to get out of this teenybopperish phase.

2006-11-21T19:11:00.000-08:00

I'm like the most unaccomplished person, considering how free I have been lately. & considering that the next few weeks hold a whirlwind of activities for me. Anyway, I've been busy discovering mp3 rotations & stuff. Yesterday, we had guides. I suggested using Avril's brand new unreleased song (refer to last post) for campfire!:D But i don't think I and many others can sing so high.. Avril's voice is simply amazing! But then, I dont know if its even legal as the song has not been officially released here. But I'm sure many seniors love Avril, like rachel goh etc.

My first time chopping wood, was quite an experience. I actually managed to do it! Was very accomplished cos i thought i would give up halfway. We also split wood and hacked away at a log. Very energy-consuming. I named my piece of wood Shockiest after Shockie in Flushed Away, Valerie's was shockie and Mingyi's was shockier. We held a funeral for Shockie, Valerie's wood. We even had a tiny sermon thingie. Here rests Shockie, he lived a short but fulfilling life. He was a good piece of wood. We'll miss him dearly. Then, we proceeded to bury Shockie under dirt. where he'll contribute to the ecosystem of life. We were teasing Shaowin about Edwin too and she chided me about getting a folk guitar.

Heh, which reminds me, I'm gonna be getting a new guitar today:]Meeting with Lena to hunt down a nice guitar. yay! A classical guitar!:] Unfortunately, they don't look as cool as folk ones, but they're much less painful and produce nicer sound! Wanted to go to the guitar festival, but have stanford briefing and don't think Valerieee/shaowin are interested.

Cloud rocks<3 !She appointed me as the make up artist for ******** along with her!!! Whoohoo man I'll have the greatest time LOL! Shall ransack my mum's cabinet for make - up to practise and some poor people will have to bear the agony of having vandalised faces! Oh and her boyfriend is called Rain, that evil korean singer who charges so much for concert tickets.

ANYONE WANNA BUY A BLACK FOLK GUITAR IN GOOD CONDITION? PRICE IS NEGOTIABLE. IF YOU'RE INTERESTED, CONTACT ME BY TAGGING OR AT AVRIL.ADDICT@GMAIL.COM!
I would paste a picture but im really too lazy to.

2006-11-19T22:55:00.000-08:00

OMG AVRIL'S NEW SONG IS OUT!on american radio only, though. it's called keep holding on! It's on the movie Eragon!! Be sure to support Avril by buying her new cd next year!<3 It sounds fantastic I swear!!!OMG ITS HER BEST SONG YET! (I think) a Very different, more emotional sound! If anyone wants to listen or u want the clip, get it from me! Check out the lyrics at the sidebar. Really, as an Avril fan I would obviously say her material gets better, but this must be the most uplifting song since at the beginning!It's WONDERFUL! Of course it is, since Avril wrote it for Eragon, it's a ballad type. OMG Avril is getting better and better!!!

2006-11-17T20:35:00.000-08:00

I was planning on blogging long-ly (sorry bad english) about the
sleepover with my cousin but I shall just write about that in point
form. Why? because I was inspired by Jamie's post. Okay I will just be
copying the whole discussion on her blog shamelessly but really, I
think that the whole concept is intriguing. Anyway, here's basically
what happened, not in chronological order as my brain operates in the
same way as bonesetter's daughter.
- watched my Lovely Samsoon. That actor guy is almost as pinchable as KJH=)
- played with Danielle!
- Did masks for one another and scribbled all over each other's faces
with eyeliner. mwaha.
- painted nails with an assortment of gross colours
- watched DEATHNOTE- ze highlight! My mum is mean for saying that
Light looks weird;( I was too busy explaining the plot to grace, my
mum and my maid to appreciate the actors' acting
- gossiped TONS. i do have a teensy bit of girl genes=)
- watched my lovely samsoon again. It's really quite amusing,even
though the storylines are so similar to all other dramas.
- Went out to orchard
- blew my budget on cheap (ear)rings.
- Felt nauseous after consuming Cheer's nachos, they are really tough
and disgusting. Never attempt to eat them.
- Destroyed the deathnote keychain at Cine. Since I lack integrity, I
did not own up. Just ordered another keychain. It's the one with L's
laptop, it looks cool!
- couldn't find books at library@orchard nor any comics

Back to what I wanted to talk about. I never really got down to giving
Battle Royale the credit it deserves. The reason
it appeals to most teenagers is probably becuase of the "cool concept", but
it has a deeper meaning behind the
bloodshed and violence, it is really about internal conflict and
whether you dare to trust people. Really, if we were plunged into such
a horrifying situation, would we kill our classmates? I know everyone
will vehemently deny the mere notion of killing others. believe it or
not, that was what people like Shuya Nanahara claimed, and he ended up
killing people too, for reasonable erm reasons. Ah ok i feel really
bad for just swiping Jamie's idea off, and I may be talking utter
gibberish,but really, I would like to ponder about other people, if
this situation were to happen. Which is again very unlikely, but just
for the heck of it, and to alleviate my guilt at copying off her post.
I don't mean to offend anyone, and I am not accusing anyone of
thinking of such violent thoughts. But you have to agree that it is a
truly interesting thought. I don't mean anything derogatory or
whatnot, so don't send me hatemail.Like all those superstitious people.

Besides all the goriness, its not about whether u r noble enough to die
for those you love, but of the complexity of human nature. As in, u can
be claiming that u would readily die for some one, but at the last minute,
on impulse, kill the person. Everything is unpredictable. I honestly think that
the truth would only be revealed if something like that were to really happen.
Otherwise, no one would really know the truth. Hope nothing like that
would happen,
but then the government would have to be seriously screwed. It's
sadistic.. what would
they get out of implementing such a stupid authoritarian programme?
But the book is riveting, and what it teaches is even more priceless.

Would I die for Avril? For my family or very closest friends? I
honestly think I would
for family, because I know they'd do the same for me, but that is
quite a stupid reason.
In all honesty, I would say I don't know about Avril. Even though she
is my idol, and I really look up to her etcetc, she is after all out
of reach as a famous star, and though people may think of her life as
being more valuable, it would actually be up to me to decide at that
moment. It would have to come down to the actual thing happening right
before me for me to confirm what I would do.It is a bit far-fetched
and very impossible, but still, think about it for a moment. This is assuming
that the person has to kill to live. Not assuming that we are fresh on
the island and
no one has been killed yet. So don't mind the harshness if your name appears:D
it's only about whether you'd fight to stay alive.

Oh and Battle Royale is about a class of students left on an island
and forced to
kill their classmates to survive. They have a choice whether or not to
kill. Oh and
in case you're wondering, they have no means to escape, but they are some pretty
smart people in the book. Read the book, I think it should be better
than the movie,
it's translated from Jap to Eng, so it sounds a bit awkard but it
contains the gist.

307 people
Kewei- omg I really don't know. Even though she is my closest
friend in class, she is totally warped. She acts baka too, but she
can be a bit scary at times. Plus she's really self-motivated.Hello, she
said she would totally ignore me if she got a boyfriend=((( So,
hmmm... She's a very nice person but it's hard to tell =) She's the
type who is quite determined to get what she wants, so I really have
no clue.

Baihui- DEFINITELY, without a doubt! Waha not that she's evil, I mean
my sitting next to her must have influenced her in some way to exhibit
her nice side. But, she has that diabolical look on her face, and she
is very intelligent and can be mean if she wants, and she reads all
those graphic comics and she was the one who introduced me to battle
royale again, so YEAH.

Rachel L.- I don't know. She's a nice friend, and we share many
similar interests, but I have no idea what she would do. But all that
swooning over HSM must have amounted to something.. right ?=)

Rachel T. - Oh Man this is a TOUGH one! Rachel T. must be one of the
nicest people I know, but I have always had this impression that she
could double as a supervillain. I mean it in the most reverent way
possible, I just think that she is ultrasmart, like her counterpart,
Baihui. I guess it comes down to whether friendship means more to her.

Jolynn- Noo way.. haha. She's way too innocent! She would be telling
me retarded jokes and laughing in that lame way of hers. But then
again, it's hard to to tell.She gives off this nonchalant attitude
sometimes, which is frightening.

Florence- yeah, she would laugh in that high-pitched voice, and go
very low, "mwaha it was all a pretense! I am a chicken villain." Can totally
imagine her as an evil chicken!=)

Steffi- NOOOO she's way too nice, she's such a role model and
practically advocating peace and goodwill to mankind. But then again,
she's the leader of SJ, hrm so she must be really steely and
determined. But I think overall, her niceness surpasses the strict
persona she takes on with her cca mates. So she wouldn't, steffi san
is too nice.

Heather- HAHAHAHA. I think she would be bawling her eyes out if it
happened. She would worry about not taking any more exams=) Ha, no
offence, Heather!

Elizabeth- Same as Jolynn, I think their characters are very close.
But she is also a very driven person, so who knows?

Aileen - Totally! I mean she's the council president or whatever, and
she is the type who will get things done no matter what. Of course,
she would probably hesitate about killing her ex-desk partner what
with our love for Avril, but I think she would do it!

Shall move on before Survivor starts!=)

201 people:
Yanne- NOOOOOOOOOOOO she's a very loyal friend. Correct me if I am
wrong but she has bucketloads of integrity and she is always preaching
about it like her ahem teacher, so she better not be a hypocrite and
nip our friendship in the bud. HAHA. Seriously, I doubt she even can
hold a weapon!=)

Valerie- YES! She always has violent tendencies around me and never
fails to hit me when I say something totally normal, so if I gave her
a glare or something, she would kick me with her powerful legs. Or if
i mentioned Ben! She would say sayonara, mama and kill me !=)

Grace- YAH. She acts dumb sometimes, but she is smart, somewhere under
all those comics she burrows her head in. She would be a bit
apologetic, but definitely get down to business. She definitely cares
about other things more than her friends=)

Jamie- OBVIOUSLY!!! She isn't as foulmouthed or mean as she was, in
fact she is quite mature now I think. However, I think she has it in
her to become a serial killer if she wants. At the same time, her
faith (in God) seems quite strong , so perhaps she would not resort to
such things. I think she's nice, but she seems the type who will do it
if only for the sake of self-survival. Come on, she's so smart and
seems to have the ability to numb herself, so perhaps she would.

Terri- Yeah! Hrmph she always teases me and stuff, so she wouldn't
feel bad about this. Terri is a nice cuttle little girlie, but she has
it in her to do what she has to, I think. She reminds me of that evil
girl who will use her cute factor to advance her position. But then
again, her faith in God won't make her so manipulative. & we have been
friends for the longest time, same class for so long, so perhaps she
might take that into consideration!

Sheryl- I think so, she would forget all about the 5 years of being in
the same class. & she would get her revenge on me for calling her a
microscopic creature!

Li Syn- Yeah too. She can be quite manipulative if she wants to, and
she appears to cares about other things more than her friends. But
then, we used to be quite good friends, so I don't know.

Tricia- Hrm Hrm Hrm I don't know. I guess she would if she had to. But
she's also quite sympathetic and one of the first friends I made in
Sec 1, so I think it would be a hard decision for her.

Jiaqi- Don't know. We were quite mean to her in Sec 2, sigh don't
wanna rake up bad memories but I realy feel bad for being so mean to
her even though she was also quite mean to me=) She is one of the only
people I would not blame if she killed me, cos we went through quite a
rough time. But then again, we were very close in Sec1, almost like
best friends, so I think she'd remember that.

Tag me if you want me to write about you!=)

GUIDES FRIENDS!
Mingyi Pok- YAHHHH. She's a very sweet person, but she would think of
all the things I like which she hates and realise that we have nothing
in common. She would proceed to torture me and force me to LIKE
Britney, like those Jap occupation people, and when I refused, she
would stab me with a PINK bayonet.Ahaha!

Shaowinnie- DEFINITELY!!!!!!Without a doubt, she is one of the most
ruthless people I know, at least she acts like it, even though i know
she has a heart of gold. AWWW. She always pinches me and acts
generally mean to me, so she would. Especially with the Edwin teasing
and so on.

Jiayun/Cloud - I don't know. I remember that in Sec 2 we didn't really
like each other, but now we are quite close. Esp after that "adult"
talk we had:D She's a christian and very traditional at heart even
though she does not appear so, so noo. But if it were to survive on
her own, absolutely=D

Huimin- She's too nice!!!!!!! But then she's a smart person, so she
would probably have thought of some strategy to win or something.

Ant- Dunno. Perhaps she will recall the fun we had that day and not do
it. She's also nice and a christian, so i guess not. But we arent
close friends, so she might, then again.

Others:
Avril!!!- Haha, erm, I guess so, not because she is mean but because
she does not know me and I would appear as a weird stalker fan which I
actually am. Since she doesn't like stalkers, she would be scared of
me and kill me=( boohoo. I would be worshipping her and she would be
freaked out. But she would probably sing one of her songs to appease
me as my last wish on my deathbed=D AWWW.

grace, my cousin- DUNNO. Even though she always calls me lame and
teases me (you know how pri 6 girls are), BLOOD IS THICKER THAN
WATER!:D & we are best cousins! She would probably pick me out of her
friends, but not when it comes to her immediate family. But then I
would threaten her with all the private things she has told me, so
that would be emotional blackmail.

Eudora!- haha my good ole primary school friend, who has kept in
contact so long with me. Probably not, cos its against her religion,
and she loves me too much=D Waha, but she can be very unreasonable
when she's angry so if she were angry, she would be unhesitant.

Jolyn F.- HURHUR she's so incredibly blur! But she has violent
tendencies, and LOVES blood more than me. So she would kill me ala
Dracula style, by sucking the blood out of my neck and weakening me,
so I would roam the world as an Undead long after everyone died=D She
would be the only person to make me undead yet dead as a vampire!!

Mindy Ong- We've known each other since we were ... 5 years old??? All
those poignant memories in America as neighbours and carpool-mates,
and now we still keep in touch here. Haha she was one of my best
friends when we were young and remains a good friend, so I guess not.
But I really have no idea.

My Maid!- HEh Heh. Don't know, I think she totally hates me for
ordering her around. But she so affectionately named the fish after
me, so she must like me a bit. & she's quite caring and stuff and is a
funky maid, so maybe not. But to survive, I wouldnt be surprised if
she got her sweet revenge after all these years of bossing her around.

Parents- I am sure they wouldn't. As in, parents are supposed to be
willing to give up their lives for their children, right? Even if my
dad is mean to me and calls me weird names and threw a remote control
at me (I bear grudges okay!), he would. They love me too much, awwww.

My future adopted child- After finding out that I've been keeping her
in the dark about being adopted, it would turn ugly, like those horror
stories where the child kills the parent. So i'd better tell her about
it early on, and see how she reacts to it.

Fellow Avril fans- We claim to be loyal to one another, but
worshipping Avril has nothing much to do with one's wish to survive,
especially under circumstances that only one person lives. & that if
we didnt kill, we would not have the chance to see Avril again. At
least thats what I think, even though the thought of harming another
Avril fan is too much to bear.

MOST LIKELY TO WIN IN A GAME OF BATTLE ROYALE
my class- Baihui! I know she loves me -ego- but she would be the most
likely person to become an evil villain and take over the world, and
inflict us with her sarcasm!=D Then she would also sink into
depression after realising her evilness, and write long angsty fics
that would become international bestsellers!
201'05- Jamie pang. Cause she's so damn smart. But i think she'd be
the type who would end up killing herself afterwards cos she has a
conscience. It's just that she'd be unable to help being smart just
like she's unable to stop herself from topping the best class in the
exams!=/ It's just that she is too brainy, lol.

OHGosh this has been such fun. Once again I apologise to Jamie for
copying her idea but I could not resist!=D After such bland posts,
this has been the most fun! I think it would be terribly cool if we
asked these type of questions for games like truth and dare, it really
makes you philosophize and think deeply. What if what if what if.
Whoever actually read finish this deserves a huge round of applause.
pardon the typos, and once again, there may be some ultra sensitive
people who will take offence, so don't. For once, I actually let my
imagination run wild, I recommend other people to do the same thing,
if Jamie does not mind of course.
ALL CREDITS TO JAMIE WHO ROCKS!omg did i actually say that? But
really, this also has much to do with the garbage I watch on tv, like
survivor and amazing race. It all boils down to this:
Would you Kill to Triumph? Or be killed with an honest conscience?

Oh no I realise then that either i don't really trust my friends or they would
really kill me. How? But i cant claim to know a lot of them well
enough to judge.
The human character is too complex. Waha this was done in boredom again.

Another character I'd like to talk very briefly about is MITSUKO
SOUMA. The evil girl who seduces people into practically having sex
with her, then killing them. She really comes across as cruel and the
worst person in the book besides that other mechanical guy(forgot his
name), but she;s very much like mayella in tkam. Flawed characters,
they appar bad at first glance, but then, you realise that it was a
result of what happened to them, their family environments and
background. The question is, can you blame someone for being bad when
the reason that they are bad is because others were bad to them in the
first place??? So, if badness is passed on and the person did not opt
for it or willingly accept it, can that person be considered truly
evil? Will that person burn in hell or waste away to nothingness to
repent for his/her sins? I think it's really tragic, I don't know how
to ascertain if they are bad or good or neither bad nor good. I just
think that they have flawed natures and its not entirely their fault.
At the same time, there are people who choose NOT to be bad after
they've been treated badly. Instead, they become samaritans to spread
joy instead of evil. So, there has to be a little of self-willingness
to participate in the scheme of evil. Hrm, would like to find out more
about what people think about this.

2006-11-14T23:10:00.000-08:00

Hallelujah. Gerass & I are watching Step Up :] We wanted to watch Deathnote , or rather I wanted to, but it doesn't work on my dvd player. Too frightened to watch Covenant. Anyway, Valerie bailed on us as she (had) a stomachache, and it was too inconvenient for Yanne. Nevermind, shall go out another time with them. Which reminds me, havent been seeing much of fake food people, especially baka who's away in china. Perhaps we can go catch Deathnote 2 together. Okay gonna watch High School Musical next!

Before I forget, everyone who reads this, go and find the book Dracula! I swear its the scariest book ever. It's even more scary than all those shows I don't dare to watch. You'll be creeped out for the rest of your life after reading it. The ideas in the book are really horifying ones, read it & you'll understand. Don't read it and you'll not be haunted but seriously deprived.

Okay, so we watched HSM (my 4th time!), and Gerass seems to enjoy shows with bimbos inside cos she was laughing like one, as always. She wants to be asked over when HSM2 shows on Disney Channel. Yay i got company. Then we played some badminton for NYAA, less than an hour passed before I was out of breath. I don't exercise, I'm a couch potato. Attempted to teach her Ode to Joy on guitar, and she managed to play it! I feel accomplised as a amateur teacher, but she played quite horribly. She fared better on the piano. She should be coming over next week, since we live in such close proximity. It's cool hanging out with old friends and watching brainless movies!

I have not been doing any work lately, so gotta catch up already. Tomrrow's gonna be cool too, watching Deathnote with the AMAZING grace, the other one.

2006-11-12T22:14:00.000-08:00

I've been slacking like nobody's business at home ;] Been watching stuff on Utube the whole day. Ha i hate to say i told you so, but i told you so! Referring to the Britney divorce thing. Poor Mpok's gonna be devastated, or maybe happy, depending on whether she likes K-fed.

So, no plans for this week, except movie marathon on wed! Yanne, Valerie & Grace are coming over, and i shall make them watch the Covenant & Deathnote !! & if there is time, we shall embark on some serious studying.

This is what happens when you've been fangirling over a girl (Avril) for so long. You start obsessing over Korean/Jap guys. Why have I only just discovered them? Go, Ken'ichi whatshissurname and Tatsuya Fujiwara and KJH!;D hey did u know that oppa= big brother in korean? Seriously thinking of taking up Jap someday. According to my mum, Korean doesn't sound as nice as Jap, no offence to anyone.

Since you have witnessed an unlikely transformation, I'm sure you people will be all the more willing to purchase my CDs, so as to aid in my growing interest in Korean/Jap stuff. Buy those old cds from me ! The list is below. Get cracking.

As for homework, I have attempted bits and pieces of it. It's in a huge mess right now. Ee... my mum's friends are coming over to play mahjong later, it sure as hell is gonna be noisy. Shall hide in my room and do weird stuff.

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Okay doing weird stuff now. I'm overjoyed cos i managed to download 5 stella lights!;] it's a good album, though a bit too pop for my taste. Sirius and Still Believe are the nices!Holy shit, never imagined I'd think certain j-pop was nice. I swear this is going to go away soon. I'm still in hiding- in the guest room, while my mum's boisterous friends are playing outside.

biennale

2006-11-11T05:05:00.000-08:00

CDs for Sale! ( Need to raise money to buy MCR + Nightmare B4 Xmas + KJH's cd)
Hitz album - a lot of popular singers
ashlee simpson - i am me & autobiography
ryan cabrera- take it all away
Lillix - Falling Uphill -- not a well known band, but they sound a bit like Avril, not bad.
Spiderman 2 soundtrack -- lots of good rock anthems
Katy Rose- Because i can --sounds a bit like Avril, but nowhere near as good
Alicia Keys (2nd latest album)
Britney Spears -god, i had such mad taste!
Marion raven
The white stripes
Lindsay Lohan - Speak

That's it for now, i still have quite a few more. Pls contact me if you are interested, you'll have the satisfaction of having helped someone in need.

2006-11-09T18:06:00.000-08:00

NEW Skin feat. deathnote!;D That actor guy (i forgot his name) looks so cool, he acted as the leads in both Battle Royale and Deathnote! In the school com lab now. yanne's watching dachangjin-.- going to the biennale later.

2006-11-09T18:03:00.000-08:00

Some people just love to be hated. Or rather, they love TO hate. WhenI read the comments on current bands, I was really angry. There hasalways been a certain group of people all over the world who hatecurrent music. They have a right to, obviously, but I think they aretaking it too far by bashing any bands, irrgeardless of whether theyproduce good music.To them, any music by any bands in thispop-rock/emo-rock era is pure crap.

They do not hesitate to complain about the unoriginality of music ofbands such as Nickelback, Hinder, even insulting Bon Jovi which haslegions of fans internationally. Fine, maybe their rebel music isbetter, more soulful and not so commercialised, but it's reallysickening for them to blindly criticise anything on MTV. I do have to agree, though, with how a lot of hiphop/r&b music is corrupting thebrains of youngsters, but I have no right to label it as lousy music,just because I don't like it. It's just the image they portray whichcomes across as deragatory.

I, like any other normal person , just pay no heed to bad music if it doesn't interest me.Just because certain bands like making acoustic-y tracks which arenthardcore rock doesn't mean they're scumbags who will jump at theopportunity of earning big bucks. Just because their songs (may be) easier to play and the lyrics aren't so abstract that they areundecipherable by the masses doesn't make them any worse. They thinkthat music has to be so abstract and not contain any simple languagefor it to be profound and good.

Angst-ridden songs don't go well withthem.I'd like to remind them about the essence of music. Music is an outletfor us to express how we feel and not about how well we can playinstruments. Please stop criticising bands just because you don't liketheir type of music. It doesn't make them bad. I think they deserve apat on the back for trying to save the current music scene from
unfortunately quite a few from what I can see.S

o sorry if no one plays real rock anthems anymore. The music scenehas metamorphosised as it always will, and it is because of what themajority of people want that it has evolved to where it is right now.If you want to go and rebel against the masses, go right ahead, noone's stopping you. In the end, it's not like you can change anything.The best thing would be to listen to what you like best, withoutresorting to lambasting "bad music". On the contrary, it actuallyshows how truly affected you are about it.

Certainly,the music scene has watered down considerably. Lyrics arenot what they used to be and songs on the radio are run of the millpop-rock anthems. Unsatisfied people are going to have to face up tothe fact that music has changed, and it will continue doing thatwhether they like it or not. All I\'m really trying to say is thatpeople should accept the diversity of music preferences, and notresort to slander just based on their opinions. No one has the right to tarnish the reputation of people out there making music for aliving just for their selfish personal satisfaction."

They deserve a pat on the back for trying to rid the scene of parasites- those who are only in it for the money and fame, which are unfortunately quite a few from what I can see.So sorry if no one plays real rock anthems anymore. The music scenehas metamorphosised as it always will, and it is because of what themajority of people want that it has evolved to where it is right now.If you want to go and rebel against the masses, go right ahead, noone's stopping you. In the end, it's not like you can change anything.The best thing would be to listen to what you like best, withoutresorting to lambasting "bad music".

Certainly,the music scene has watered down considerably. Lyrics are not what they used to be and songs on the radio are run of the mill pop-rock anthems. No one really needs to have a fanstastic voice to score number one hits any longer. Unsatisfied people are going to have to face up to the fact that music has changed, and it will continue doing thatwhether they like it or not. All I'm really trying to say is thatpeople should accept the diversity of music preferences, and notresort to slander just based on their opinions. No one has the right to tarnish the reputation of people out there making music for aliving just for their selfish personal satisfaction.

2006-11-09T17:54:00.000-08:00

Tuesday:
went out with Val C,and to my surprise, we were both clad in quite similar colours. redand black and blue. heh. We wasted our money on a bad movie, flushedaway, (if you havent watched it, thank your lucky stars, it was atotal waste of 6 bucks!), well shockie was quite amusing but otherthan that, it was almost as bad as madagascar. except for somereferences;) like to charles dicken's, according to the newspaper.

Out of curiosity, we went to MISE, the place everyone is so crazy about. I bought a tiny Princess Hours card, the ones of KJH lookednice but girly. Omg lots of Jap stuff there, if only some shop herecatered to Avril merch, i would really go broke. Valerie ogled overjejun (sounds ridiculous), some weird jap guy in some weird jap band.First time those fangirly shops, it was quite an experience.

I got my Deathnote notebook!I will use it over and over again, pencilmarks can be erased;) sadly, there're no pics of L/Light. We alsostumbled across Grace & guides juniors obsessing over Princess Hourscomics. Drooled at Deathnote comics, but we knew we couldn't affordthem. Came up with an ingenious plan to coerce grace into buying thewhole set and lending them to us.

Ooh and the saddest bit was spotting the most wonderful emily thestrange bag (it really rocks, even val likes it), and the exorbitantprice on the tag:( 69 bucks! I've since gotten over it though cos itsway out of budget, especially because of those lessons. Gotta getstrings and a music stand. At this rate, I will really be penniless.

Went hunting for V's cap, finally found a decently priced one.Rampaged the gramophone outlets, but they didnt have hinder's cd:(Actually, life\'s not too bland at the moment, if you waste away yourtime like me:) Mine's something like a few hours watchingKorean dramas/talented people playing guitar videos on youtube, a few hoursof reading, a few hours of tv, a bit of time for homework & sias, &some time for listening to music. I could get used to this!
Homeschooling would totally suit me.

Here's an Avril update! Avril's 3rd album is coming out inApril 2007, so it's not too far away ! (being optimistic here) Therewill be 15 songs, and she says its her BEST CD YET! Despite that beingan obvious promotional strategy, i believe her. I mean, she's collaborating with Deryck Whibley (her husband!), Butch Walker, TravisBarker (drummer of Blink 182) and she wrote all 15 songs on her newalbum. It will contain more love songs, but also her famousboy-bashing type of songs. Omg can't wait for it!!!!! Disclaimer:Everyone's been telling me that Avril has been girlified, but i beg todiffer, and so does she. She mentioned that she is growing up, and ofcourse needs to embrace her feminity. But, she's still a tomboy atheart and her fave colour's black. & she's not really modelling, itsjust that a bit of modelling work is being done and controlled by heragency, ford models or something. Avril Rocks! -credits toavrilbandaids.--

2006-11-06T00:18:00.000-08:00

Music- Lips of an angel --Hinder
I Love Hinder! Fantastic band from US that sounds like Nickelback, but rougher and edgier. Nickelback was great- until they became commercialised. Lead singer is irritating but their songs are very good. Their new CD, extreme behaviour ,which has quite an obscene artwork cover, but at least they beat all those whiny pop starlets. Real music, at last!

Very pleased to be out of the Korean zone:) Finished watching Fog Street, on to My Tutor Friend. I recommend Fog Street, but thats only cos KJH's inside, otherwise it's not a very excellent minidrama.

Now i'm in a much better mood:D I had my first individual guitar lesson today. The teacher is nice and cool, apparently she's heard of Avril so she can't be all that bad. Know how to play ode to joy now, but my fingernails keep getting in the way, gotta cut them.

Youtube is addictive! I was just watching others' covers of acoustic songs, and a lot of them are excellent!They can sing well and play guitar well! Wow i am so impressed by how so many people can play so well. One girl's voice sounds identical to Avril's! I was so amazed. & a lot of people who covered Hinder's Lips of an angel sound much better than that idiotic lead singer:D Shall go watch more instructional videos. Shall go guitar shopping with Valerie one day, i want to sell my folk guitar. It stings horribly, i heard that people with it can end up with bleeding fingers.ow.

Ooh and i feel accomplished cos i managed to do that weird upside down pose;) Unfortunately, nothing's progressing in the writing department. Anyway, anyone has Jodi Picoult novels? Lend them to me! Vanishing acts is good, Keeping Faith is also not bad, but the ending is downright creepy.

Anyone want to get guides cookies? :) Buy them FROM ME now, while stocks last!

2006-11-03T23:03:00.000-08:00

In a bad mood for no reason. Or maybe I just can't be bothered to find that out. Ah well... certain people are just nauseating.

I don't need to dig deep to see the hypocrisy lying underneath. It's hard to believe that after knowing someone for quite long, they turned out to be tainted, like all the others, nothing but a superficial shell of who she used to be.

Once again, I've been inflicted by Blogger's block- the syndrome of not knowing what to blog about, a bland and flavourless life. Anyway, does anyone have Fog Street / My Tutor Friend mvs/dvds? I really need them! Fog street has KJH and seems sad . It's nice watching sad shows without shedding any tears, though somewhat sadistic.

Plans for Next Week-
go out with Vchew
go out with yanne
first g. class

Everyone's away, its boring. I never wanna see another bloody proposal of any kind. I still don't know how to read comics- from the back or front?!

2006-11-01T02:32:00.000-08:00

i hope i don't get sick! it was raining cats and dogs just now at clarke quay, where mpok, jolynn and i were reckee-ing. (however you spell it) We went there to look for potential stations for the guides heritage trail during camp. It's around the same area as the last heritage trail, but all the stations'll be different. Anyway, i feel a tad cold now, which is a bad sign right! oh no. I never really get sick often thanks to those vit. pills, so i hope they sustain my health. We had lotsa fun today!

There was PLC at first, I'm the treasurer with Zhuoxuan, cos i didnt want to be hard/soft QM.Must learn from steffi.san. After that, went down to Chinatown with Val+2 ppl mentioned above. Ate and looked for attraction places in Chinatown, but we were totally lost, so went to clarke quay. At this point, Valerie just ditched us. Heh dont blame her though, cos she isn't in our group anyway.

Was playing bingo with Val+Mpok as we were really bored. Why is everyone around me turning sexual? (i.e. opposite of asexual) Like Valerie who has a pic of some weird Korean guy on her handphone, and Shaowin & Edwin and Baihui (i think) who seems to be gagaing over Jap boybands. It seems like I'm the only sane person.

I was sharing Mpok's gross pink esprit umbrella ( the worst possible combination) and it was highly uncomfortable as we squelched simultaneously. Jolynn and I decided to jaywalk, while Mpok was chastising us at the other end, as we ran off. Poor Mpok was stranded without an umbrella, as I had stolen away with hers. By the time she found us, she looked like a drenched chicken.

AT least, the reckeeing was pretty productive. Thanks to their great navigational skills, and intelligence of sourcing out Singapore Tourism Center, we found almost all stations, though the rain prevented us from actually visiting them. Was really funny, screaming with Mpok as the lightning crackled in front of us.

Damn jealous of Kewei's overall average and MSG, it's so pretty. Sigh, gonna work out on my proposal. posted some pictures of The Spine+Jamie+Grace's visit below. Going to work on IH, Guides proposals and LA.

2006-11-01T01:39:00.000-08:00

My neighbour's baby!

Today was certainly... fun. Unfortunately, the photos are taking VERY
long to load, so maybe i shall not put them up. After all, words are
more impactful and meaningful:) So, Terri, Jamie and Valerie made
their way to my house, we took a taxi back. Jamie broke her shoes, so
i had to bring slippers for her. & they couldn't decide on what movie
to watch, ok it was more of being engrossed discussing results. Which
was fun to gossip about for a bit, but once it touched on very
sensitive subjects, it was SAD. okok i know i did really badly for
that subject already, but no one shall ever know how horribly i fared.
Depressing:(

Everyone was ignoring Valerie's pleas to go to the park and my request
to play truth and dare:( love that scandalous game!:) which reminds
me, really need a sleepover soon, shall invit the fake food gang after
their overseas trips. Of course, dear Gracey too.

Sadly, Terri didn't bring her skateboard. I was planning to become an
expert on it. They were all showing off their musical talents- Jamie
playing my grade 1 piece (i think i played more smoothly than her on
that=), Terri who figured out the scores to the Full House theme song
by herself, Valerie on my very out of tune guitar. goodness, now i
know why i cant seem to play a decent song, it really sounds
horrible:( ) Feel very inferior compared to them. Nvm, shall hire
Shaowin's teacher, who will train me individually. Anyway, there're
other fascinating hobbies-like fics!fics forever!whoever says they're
boring has no taste, i tell you, if youve never written a tiny story
with absolutely no academic purposes, like school essays, then u wont
know how it feels to write. It's an unexplainable feeling, writing for
writing. Unlike what Jamie said, there does not have to be an
overarching concept.

Happy Birthday to my mum in advance, her birthday coincidentally falls
on Halloween=D Lucky. Happy Halloween, it was really a fun holiday,
its sad that
Singaporeans dont bother to appreciate such a fantastic holiday.
Shall spend the whole of tomorrow nourishing my brain with Wuthering
Heights and fic-writing and Lit Satire research and Math. Yeah man, I
can do it!

2006-10-29T06:24:00.001-08:00

TESTING.
blogger has been down on my computer for some reason. so while everyone else is busy watching korean dramas, i'm busy getting engrossed in anime. i never thought i'd like it, never in a million years. oh and i still dont know the difference btw manga and anime so lets not bother with the technicalities. so far, only been watching deathnote anime and parts of battle royale which is really sadistic and scary. i dont know if i dare to continue watching, the book was bad enough. But the real movie (Deathnote) is still better than the anime, so do watch it! of course, have still been doing my korean homework, mostly on youknowwho=) more later. on to apprentice.

remind me not to neglect good old books, will refrain from anime soon. on to manga. must try to understand wuthering heights first gosh, what weird combinations. but all of them have this similar foreboding theme of death, which is pretty morbid.

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Waiting..waiting. okay today is going to rock. Anime+ecp+truth&dare+movies=FUN!

2006-10-29T06:24:00.000-08:00

2006-10-27T06:55:00.000-07:00

Today was the last day of school. No tears or hugs were shed or
exchanged. So, it wasn't really sad, but today was a day of poignant
memories, mostly bacause of Mdm Mak's farewell. I don't know her well,
but I can tell that she is a genuinely caring principal, who does not
restrict herself to conforming rigidly to past school traditions. She
seems to be a warm person, and it will be sad to lose such an
admirable principal as her. Farewell, dear Prinicipal!

I heard a bit of news that I found extremely surprising. Either I am
always completely in the dark about everything, or I just don't pay
enough attention to detail. It made me appreciate my class more and
realise how much I admire it. I recall, back at the beginning of the
year, when I was really pessimistic about being in this class.
Everyone seemed to be smart and perfectionists, or highly talented in
several areas. It was and is hard not to feel inferior in a class like
mine. In all honesty, this class is the MOST creative, intelligent,
talented, impassioned, outspoken class I've ever been in. I don't feel
terribly close to it, i do still prefer my old class. No offence
meant, but it feels quite demmoralising sometimes when you aren't as
outspoken as most other people. But, of course, there will always be
people who are like you, and to these people I am most grateful to. I
do like 307 and admire it more than any class I've been in, and I hope
to get to know those I don't really know better, will probably try and
be more outspoken next year.

This will be a rare post where I mention several friends. It seems
only appropriate to be appreciative of friends and people who have
helped, in some way or another. Thanks to 307 for making me realise a
lot of things, it's been great learning life lessons with you guys.
Especially Kewei for being a fantastic funny friend whom shares a lot
of similar interests with me, Baihui for being a witty, sarcastic desk
partner whom will owe me lots of money, Twins for introducing me to
writing fics!, Jolynn for being a cool,quirky class and CCA mate,
Steffi for being an inspring and humble friend, Elizabeth for being
someone I can talk to, Florence for the infectious laughter, Heather
for amusing us with your exam exasperation, HuiQi for being a
meticulous and wonderful monitress, Beni for being a fun and
self-professed 'cute' Lit mate, Aileen for being a weird ex-desk
partner who likes Avril too and EVERYONE ELSE IN 307!!!!!!!!!!2006 has
been a fun year, thanks to your witty mannerisms, a truly
unforgettable year.

Fortunately, I have managed to remain in close contact with my
ex-classmates too. Thanks especially to the people who celebrated
Avril's birthday with me this year like the good ole times, Yanne for
being an extremely amusing person to talk to about stuff and
teachers:), Valerie for being a fun person to tease and inspiring me
to beat your ass at guitar, Terri for being Terri-ish and recommending
Deathnote, Jamie for helping me with Math and interesting
conversations about teachers, Grace for lending me your Kino Card
always, Sheryl for writing hilarious stuff on her blog, Lisyn for
remembering, Tricia for being hardworking(?) and EVERYONE ELSE IN
201'05!!!!!

And obviously, my batchmates! Well some of you know how unenthusiastic
I was about guides (i still have sucky skills and stuff), but you all
really accepted me when I came in at Sec 2. For having no qualms, and
allowing me equal opportunities, thanks lots! Would especially like to
thank Ming Pok for being a polar opposite and someone who laughs at my
unfunny jokes, Valerieeee again for giving me that idea about L, Cloud
for being really slackish and hilarious and totally nonsensical and
sharing your cookie with me, Jolynn again for providing scaffolding
during that nerve-wrecking period, SHAOWIN for dating edwin coz it
cracks us up, Huimin for being an interesting car pooler and EVERYONE
ELSE IN OUR BATCH! all of you are a competent bunch, so don't worry
too much!

Although they'll probably never see this, I thank my parents the most.
I am a very temperamental person, probably as a result of being an
only child (i'm not spolit though!) Hrmph except my Dad is very mean
sometimes and teases me a lot, but Thanks to both you guys for
creating me, and bringing me into this intriguing though quite screwed
up world. Thanks for tolerating me!

Now, my hands are really tired.
Learn to appreciate the diversities of others and embrace them,
instead of focusing on the blind spots.
OMG, in a very cliche, cheesy, un-kyna mood now. sorry for the
emotional outpouring of thanks. don't worry, im not one of those
people who will go crying as I have a very cold, unemotional heart and
am not used to this kind of gratitude. But I do appreciate all the
nice people around me!

2006-10-24T23:22:00.000-07:00

I'm back! One more day till school's out, can't wait! But then again, I also have Lit, IH and Chi SIA to start on.

The holiday was pretty boring, not going to go into detail.

Except that I watched a movie, Deathnote!:D I dare say it is one of the coolest movies i have watched thus far. Japanese+slightly droolworthy actors+complicated plot+God of Death+eccentric L+complexity of Light= Fantastic movie! I'd give it 4.5 stars!From now on, i shall trust Terri's taste. & i will go find the manga and fics on it! Part 2- the Last Name is coming out this Dec, so i'll have to watch that too. Anyone who hasn't watched Deathnote, go catch it, it is really really really worth the money. In case anyone has something against manga (i used to dislike it), it's not even manga-y and even if it was, manga is quite cool too.I must go and buy the deathnote notebook and voodoo people who are mean to me. So watch your back!
Why are all Japanese stuff so cool? Like Battle Royale and Deathnote!

It feels weird not to be in school for three days. But i certainly don't miss it.

Me: Hey, wanna read my story?
Mum: What's it about?
Me: Lesbians, okay sort of bisexuals.
Mum: What!People are going to think you are one yourself!

It's times like these when you feel accomplished , even if you know it isn't going to lead you anywhere. Must do things for self-satisfaction sometimes.

Must convince my mum that there is nothing wrong with lesbians. Though it would be interesting to kid my parents and see their reaction!

My work has been abandoned. Better go start on them. I have one whole chinese compo and Math stuff to learn. Even though the holidays have not yet begun and 2 months seems endless, you'll be surprised at how busy we are and how fast time flies.

Just updated the spine and avrilhistory. all the joint blogs are so dead.

testing

2006-10-20T05:35:00.000-07:00

great, i do not understand the binomial theorem at all. i know i am going to die for calculus and whatever we're learning next year.

yay on to chapter 3. must say i have gained my inspiration after having read some books. still, i have no idea how the minds of lesbians work, so it will sound extremely amateurish. ohwell first stories are never really great right. have requested the editing skills of fic master classmate:)

watched some korean dramas and i am disappointed with their lack of creativity. i tell you, most of them have the same storyline. basically, boy and girl are forced to live together/co-exist in harmony, of course, their personalities clash and they hate each other. after all the teasing and hating, they realise that they are MADE for each other and live happily ever after. problem resolved. it's quite boring after a while. don't know why everyone is crazy about princess hours. i mean, it's quite entertaining but so cliche. an exception is da chang jin, though, at least it's more ... unloveydovey.

bon voyage to my friends leaving on eoy trips, and to dear baka who's going away to china!

2006-10-18T21:36:00.000-07:00

After reading people’s blogs, I suddenly feel enlightened. To be honest, I really should not be complaining about my overall average even though I still feel slightly sad that it could have been better. You know how almost everyone goes that they could have done better after doing an exam. Well, it’s just too bad, coz that’s the grade you received and you might as well face up to it.

Somehow, I have managed to come to terms with my LA grades. I am wistfully hanging onto the illusion (?) that results do not equal to real ability, as my nice friends keep comforting me with. Of course, that is not a very valid excuse to alleviate the devastation I faced , but now I am just mildly dissatisfied, which is a huge improvement. Then again, I never professed to be good at it, it was just that I thought and still hope to do well for it as in the past.

I agree with what Sheryl said. It IS depressing to know you can never beat the people over there in the top class. Sure, they excel academically and most of them deserve it for working their butts off. Thankfully, I have learnt that this does not necessarily equal to greater opportunities in life in the future or being extremely intelligent. Even read somewhere in Jamie’s blog that people with good results don’t have a purpose in life. That is a bit extreme, I don’t think it is true, but it goes to show that good results don’t prove anything. So we should stop thinking that we are superior to anyone in some neighbourhood school.

Actually, I should be quite sad at this point. My results are not fantastic, and neither do I have much talent in areas not relating to school. I used to, but all of them are mere ghosts of the past. This is why I have resolved not to focus sooo much on studies ( I admit that I worked hard this year, and look where it brought me) . Life is short, we should use it to enrich ourselves with other things that we have passions for.

That is why, I feel really angry when I see people who are obviously very talented (in other areas) get so het up over results. Perhaps it is the perception that exams and marks are more important. Come on, if you are good at sports/singing/writing etcetc, why be glum over something so transcient and not very significant as marks?! & to think these people get pissed at others because they do well…

These people who excel at things besides academics are truly the ones who should be proud of themselves! In my opinion, anyone can be good at academics, if they try hard enough. (some brains would come in handy, too) There’s nothing great about being fantastic at academics. Even though you are more likely to get into some renowned university, what’s the point? Really, why go be so kiasu like certain people, omg like one mark is a matter of life and death!

I don’t think they do it on purpose, but when I saw the snobby looks on their faces today, I felt like going up to them and slapping them. You think you’re so wonderful at everything? Try being perceptive to the feelings of others around you, just for once. That isn’t very much to ask right?

I know that people should not be blamed or despised for being “smart”, but it is factually demoralizing when elitist groups get all the credit. Anyway, I don’t think it has anything whatsoever to do with being smart.

I was quite angry with you for doing that. Flaunting your marks, as if they were a gift from above. I know your real intentions, even though you masked them so seamlessly. But, thank you sincerely, for making me realise how academic-oriented I was, just like you are. It’s just sad that you haven’t and will not realise it. I do hope that you will one day.

This post is highly contradictory, but why should I edit it? Contradicting yourself is viewed as something taboo or wrong, but sometimes we just think that way. Isn’t it human nature to experience feelings of irony?

Anyway, all this has made me realise a very important thing. I cannot emphasise the significance and happiness I have with the choice I had made this time last year. I remember how I was fretting over my subject combination, even consulting teachers for help. As if they knew me well enough to answer that. It was a good choice in the end, as I chose something which I preferred (although I dare not declare my passion for it as it’s not something I feel a great connection with yet) and I am quite sure I would have done better if I had chosen physics. Because I would have studied hard and I have a dad who can help me. I want to just sideline a bit and mention that the reason I did well for Math was because he helped me by answering my incessant queries. Yep there you have it, Kyna is NOT good at Math, she just has a dad who is good at it and can help her. This is why anyone who has help academically will probably do pretty well and this has NOTHING to do with their intelligence.

Back to where I was. Someone made me realise that it’s not about the marks that you get for a random subject that is important, like is it’s high compared to my lower mark for humanities. Thanks to another person ( I censor the name to protect the innocent), who enlightened me about humanities being more difficult to score at that science. This cheered me up greatly, when I was feeling even more in the dumps about scoring a B3 for Lit (aha see, I actually used to be sensitive about displaying my grades) compared to some people’s high A1s for science. They are different subjects, so they cannot be compared in terms of that. Usually, I guess humanities like history are much harder to score in, which is why I admire History people all the more for taking the risk to discover what they love <3

By no means am I saying that Science people have it easy, because Science requires much brain juice and the ability to think, I’m just citing that as an example to highlight how it is more important to pick something you have genuine interest in that will enrich your mind in the long run than something else just because you don’t know what else to pick, or for a lame reason.

This must be the longest post, I have many people to thank for their insightful opinions which really completely changed my mindset on academic stuff. No longer do I feel compelled to cry or throw a tantrum when my marks are the pits. In fact, I feel more happy at having made the right choice that makes me happy and brings a tiny smile to my face, in spite of the not so pleasant marks I may receive.

2006-10-11T03:39:00.000-07:00

THE END is out!for those deprived people, the end is the last book in the series of unfortunate events!unfortunately, i only managed to read up to page 108 in slightly less than an hour? i'm a really slow reader. hmm la comments sound quite scary, but don't worry, yanne and jamie! both of you are very philosophical and profound people, so u will do well!i just hope their expectations are not really too high, after all we are only high school people and we do not have that profound thoughts.

went out with baka, and we looked like the weirdest pair ever. she with her weird nearly backless blouse and tiny skirt (claiming it showed off her nice ~~stubby~~ legs. oh and i just found out that i dress like a boy. how flattering. i realise how stupid i have been. if you add up all the money i spend on food/accessories/random weird stuff i buy on the spur of the moment, it is actually more than enough to buy me a decent paperback. i will refrain from shopping as often as possible and save up to buy books:D the us trip has been changed to UK , or are both still on? i am in a dilemma. us= fantastic shopping ( may even get to pass by the trl studio-gasps, but uk= better literary writers (there's all those poet people we studied in lit and i heard grasmere has stunning scenery). argh so how! think i will go to uk as i have been to us already and there is really nothing special about it.

anyway since i promised baka to blog, erm we bought matching jean chains and had a fun time ! thanks for the cool skull slippers,baka!:D yay project runway tonight! i love guy fashion designers, they're so eccentric and gay!(hasty generalisation) i'm damn happy that i finished chapter 1:)

going to jb tomorrow. laksa awaits me!

2006-10-10T02:08:00.000-07:00

POST EXAM/HOLIDAY RESOLUTIONS/PLANS LIST:
- read finish those 18 books!
- go out with 307 people
- go out with 201 people !
- finish updating iPod- did i mention how i idiotically wiped out all my songs one fine day?
- ice-skating with baka
- hire shaowin's teacher
- LIT SIA omg dead.
- IH SIA dead-er.
- SLEEPOVERS! hrm this will be a tough one.
- guitar classes with shaowin's teacher! & must not quit.
- buy skateboard and not twist my ankle on it!
- phantom of the opera!!!!
- finish zephyr's epiphany ( stop giggling, rachel l.)
- inspiration for vampire story
- SURVIVE STANDFORD.
- survive guide's election ( why is my cca the only one which has a public election, in front of all the juniors!)
- enjoy holiday;)

life is sad. i am rotting away at home on the internet. my life has been reduced toeat.egest.excrete.sleep.food.tv.music.book. tada! what a brilliant and fascinating life i lead.

sudden fascination with vampires:) shall go read up on them.

2006-10-09T06:25:00.000-07:00

SWEET LIBERATION!thanks very much to the people who poked/insulted/scowled at me. sour grapes.

went out with kewei, jolynn, baihui, rachels, steffi-san, florence and eliz. we were segregated coz twins+baihui went to look for jap stuff (i think?). florence was coerced into watching the lame chick flick, john tucker must die. the g-strings thing was quite funny, florence and kewei were almost writhing on the floor laughing. ok fine, me too.

steffisan persuaded me not to get wuthering heights and to wait till discount period. omg my name in japanese sounds and looks so adorable. like symmetrical characters. kino is evil, displaying all those lovely glossy books , yet pricing them so exorbitantly. i've set my sight on several books already and i am gonna get them by hook or crook. there's a new morris albom book!!! ok there's nothing that great about his books, but they are quite inspirational and easy to understand, which is always helpful for dense people like me. jolynn and i were gagaing over it, but it was too expensive. boohoos. ahh the last installment of the unfortunate series is coming out soon, very aptly titled the end. can't wait to find out the ending. found that nice vampire book but again.. i am broke.

i have decided to make watching mindless reality tv my priority, to obliterate the examination data from my poor, tortured brain. i shall start reading my books too. somewhere at the very back of my mind there is a little voice going lit sia...ih sia...nyaa... WHO CARES!

2006-10-04T23:05:00.000-07:00

EXAMS! ah okay today's paper was quite bad. biology. hmm thought i studied enough for it- i actually revised like 4 times i think but it did not help much. resigned to my fate of getting red marks scrawled all over the paper. maybe i do need to go back for bio tuition. the mcq was disastrous- well but i can't say for sure whether other's answers are correct. still, i am dead for the paper. the end.

the previous papers were okay ;) this year, i think my birthday luck worked its charms a bit. for la and chinese, i managed to regurgitate model compos even though i still think the english one is a bit out of point. and math and ih were okay, except i think the ih teacher will be angry that i called the hypothesis "preposterous". sigh anyway after jamie's chiding, i do feel a bit sad at having to resort to copying an english compo, goodness, i'd be condemned by mr william blake if he knew (and if he were still alive). i have no creativity boohoo. but that will be relinquished once baihui draws my characters for me:D

anyway i had quite a nice little party with the neighbours' babies. thanks to the people who remembered! those who owe me presents better get them after exams, thankyouverymuch. heh just kidding! argh i realise how sad it is having it during the exams:( but still, after the exams, i am definitely going on a huge shopping spree with my money. yay on monday i am going with kewei, fluffy, jolynn to watch 2 movies! which reminds me, i havent seen much of baihui and loke, the lovebirds recently. hope they are still asexual.

LIT TMR!!!argh it's really do or die. hrm i think it should be manageable, but then again there must be a reason why it's called ADVANCED lit. hrmph. a poem and prose ok breathe you can do it. hrm nothing much to study for it and i don't wanna start on math. which is why i am here, going against my promise. ok fine i shall go read up on some literary devices.

2006-09-29T04:57:00.000-07:00

you know your maid is crazy when she talks to the family fish and names it after you. (oh, and when she hands you the phone and shouts your boyfriend when it is in fact a female friend of yours)

somehow, i could not sleep. i didn't really think about anything, but i thought about not thinking which is still thinking. kewei and rachel agreed that counting sheep doesn't help either.

one paper down, i dunno how many to go! personally, i felt that lang arts was not too bad. that is not to say that i will do well for it. as i remembered, i really did horribly for it last year. (some more was on my birthday, so much for birthday luck:/) which leads me to worry about math and ih... pls don't let my bad karma screw them up for me too.

i will not be like some hypocritical people and pretend that I felt it was difficult. even though it definitely was not a piece of cake. my composition might have been a bit out-of-point. & my srq was completely disorganised. but, I feel satisfied with myself. i gave it my all and am not expecting great results, but the fatigue I felt after the exam was proof that I tried. cheesy.

contrary to our lamenting, the hall was not that unconducive an exam environment. In fact, I had "moral support" in terms of the all-rounded genius, professor pang, sitting beside me. she blew her nice a lot during the exam, which alleviated my nerves. oh and a whole bunch of 301 people too. whoopee.

i did the poem! i have done quite a bit of poetry in alit before, but somehow i don't seem to get lang art poetry. maybe coz lit is more thematic and universal(?) we are going to do indian lit and spanish lit and modern lit next year! anyway, so i was happily reading the prose piece and i realised that it was a subtly challenging piece. thank god i changed my mind in the end and did not end up like poor terri. (no offence, dear) god, 3 unseens per exam is ^%$%$ . i will collapse after the lit exam.

optimism is the way to go, man! yay;) i shall continue listening to classical music in the mornings before the exams. how uncharacteristic of me. & i shall make a nice looooooong post exam resolution list soon too.

tanbaihui and i shall suffer our much awaited demise on monday. well what do you expect, it's chinese! nevermind i shall wither away with a grin plastered on my face.

i have a lot more to say, but now is not the time, I shall sort my thoughts out after the exams. au revoir, amigos!

2006-09-26T22:33:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY, AVRIL LAVIGNE!!!!
thanks for being an inspiration and idol to many fans all over the world! can't wait for your next album;)
have a fun time celebrating your legal age in a casino!

2006-09-26T00:08:00.000-07:00

NEW URL!
not that i am not an avrilworshipper, but i just like the sound of acid tears, it sounds somewhat avrilly and melancholic.